Blog Alive...But i'm feeling so dead..

No mood for picking words.
It may be a content-lacked,
with less beautiful words,
alive yet dead..

Honestly telling you guys out there,
my heart have been to hell.
Over and over and over again,
for what??
For one things that brightens up my world,
Her smile..
When a guy is so sure and ready to accept
this girl into his life,
he is so much ready to give in,give up,
sacrifice,and even to die for this future
he dreamed of every night he goes to sleep..

*The Sunshine no longer shines the Tower.*

Yes,i'm feeling very dead now,
quarreled with my dear..
I don't remember the details anymore,
it just hurts me so much i cant even bother
to think anything else..
My dear,your heart isn't just the one break,broke,broken.
My heart is pounded,grinded,powdered..
It's a serious misunderstanding girl,
and i'm sorry to let you get the wrong idea,
i really am..

One of my Brother,
I really am proud of him..
From a nobody now he's a somebody today,
why??
He knows his weakness and bad points,
he's been living with it and one day he just
couldn't take it anymore he faced it.
NOBODY IS PERFECT OUT THERE!NOBODY!
Everyone has a negative side,
it's always something that'll hurt you,
stop you from achieving greater things,
and it's always never easy to change.

*Baobei i loved you too much,i know by saying
those things would hurt you alot,yes i do.
Rather than people out there commenting on you,
i really couldn't bear it.I rather be the bad guy
and change you then you get hurt by people out there.
iloveyou..i really do*

i've known my weakness,negatives,bad points.
(thanks to my bro)
I'm trying hard to overcome it,
it's really not easy.

To people out there,
Change or not is up to you.
Life still goes on,
Live with it..

I still wanna thank my brothers,
really standing by me on tough times.
On my first official celebrations of christmas,
my best two gift is not an object or item..
They lend me money when i pok-kai,
they comfort me when i'm sad,
they guide me when i'm off-course,
they save me when i'm danger,
they let me know what is the real meaning of
BROTHER!

My 2nd best present,
my love,
my dear,
my heart,
my soul,
my sunshine,
My baby girl Jessica..
God brought her into my life earlier this year.
She impacted,changed, and brought me into
my new life.
Her love so strong,
her care so gentle,
her smile so sweet,
her heart so pure,
her touch so soft,
her in my life is the best present as well.

Christmas is a season of giving,
They gave their love & trust to me,
My best presents...

Sweetie,change or not..
My love for you will not Change..
iloveyou