i sleep too much till my sleeping beauty leaving me soon.

I'm usually not into blogging early in the afternoon.
Well yesterday was the 25th which is..
CHRISTMAS DAY!
Everything went quite smoothly on this
year 2008 though quite bumpy,
but December 2008 i flew off track.
i've been trying really hard,
to please,
to love,
to do whatever i can.

The burdens was too much for me,
i've hardly any rest enough to heal my heart.
All that i am depending on to push
myself to carry on was a simple phrase :
"iloveyou".
Maybe i start to sound a little pathethic??
I don't deny it is,afterall someone said :
"Sentimental & Sensitive guys are weak guys"
I myself is Sentimental.
i settle my problems 90% based on feelings,
10% based on reality and facts.
I myself is a very Sensitive guy,
and i mean DARN sensitive.
i said "bye" and you don't "bye" back,
it's either i go "caochibye" or
i'll go EMO for half a day.
Being sensitive and sentimental,
seriously ain't good...But this is me..
No matter what,
Sensitive or not..sentimental or not..
Life still has to go on.

Debt's uncleared,
Family distanced,
Relationship is getting messier rather
than merrier.
Upcoming road is tougher than before,
think i'm gonna get depression =x

Oh ya,
Turn one big round still havent tell
you guys why i blog in today afternoon.
It's because i'm a sleepy head,
a very heavy sleeper.
No mood to go and think about this anymore.

...detniopassiD

Facing Reality

So far i believe & really believe that..
Everyone will have his problem.
And another thing is for sure,
Problems never end..

Facing Reality is seriously not easy..
money,money,money,money,money,money...
Everything is ;
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
I'm in debt,
in need of cash,
need money to honey etc..

2 days of working,
$120 in cash.
it's now drained to $0. in 3days time.
-.-

My father say Chee hwee smart,
Coz he very wise with money and priorities.
Good for him lor,
Bad for me coz he always see suey me..
Dont blame him though..

Afterall,i'm a failure in almost everything
i do..
At least this blog i still can write =x
Thanks fer reading oh' (=

Blog Alive...But i'm feeling so dead..

No mood for picking words.
It may be a content-lacked,
with less beautiful words,
alive yet dead..

Honestly telling you guys out there,
my heart have been to hell.
Over and over and over again,
for what??
For one things that brightens up my world,
Her smile..
When a guy is so sure and ready to accept
this girl into his life,
he is so much ready to give in,give up,
sacrifice,and even to die for this future
he dreamed of every night he goes to sleep..

*The Sunshine no longer shines the Tower.*

Yes,i'm feeling very dead now,
quarreled with my dear..
I don't remember the details anymore,
it just hurts me so much i cant even bother
to think anything else..
My dear,your heart isn't just the one break,broke,broken.
My heart is pounded,grinded,powdered..
It's a serious misunderstanding girl,
and i'm sorry to let you get the wrong idea,
i really am..

One of my Brother,
I really am proud of him..
From a nobody now he's a somebody today,
why??
He knows his weakness and bad points,
he's been living with it and one day he just
couldn't take it anymore he faced it.
NOBODY IS PERFECT OUT THERE!NOBODY!
Everyone has a negative side,
it's always something that'll hurt you,
stop you from achieving greater things,
and it's always never easy to change.

*Baobei i loved you too much,i know by saying
those things would hurt you alot,yes i do.
Rather than people out there commenting on you,
i really couldn't bear it.I rather be the bad guy
and change you then you get hurt by people out there.
iloveyou..i really do*

i've known my weakness,negatives,bad points.
(thanks to my bro)
I'm trying hard to overcome it,
it's really not easy.

To people out there,
Change or not is up to you.
Life still goes on,
Live with it..

I still wanna thank my brothers,
really standing by me on tough times.
On my first official celebrations of christmas,
my best two gift is not an object or item..
They lend me money when i pok-kai,
they comfort me when i'm sad,
they guide me when i'm off-course,
they save me when i'm danger,
they let me know what is the real meaning of
BROTHER!

My 2nd best present,
my love,
my dear,
my heart,
my soul,
my sunshine,
My baby girl Jessica..
God brought her into my life earlier this year.
She impacted,changed, and brought me into
my new life.
Her love so strong,
her care so gentle,
her smile so sweet,
her heart so pure,
her touch so soft,
her in my life is the best present as well.

Christmas is a season of giving,
They gave their love & trust to me,
My best presents...

Sweetie,change or not..
My love for you will not Change..
iloveyou