Things are just not getting better =)

Hahas,
Things just weren't looking bright ahead.
*God,Shine me your light as see me through this Lord.!Amen*

Hear the song??Queen of my heart.
Sang it infront of my girl today.
Why?? why out of a sudden..
Baby did you catch the Que??
Let me highlight to you which part,

"So how do i say,
do i say goodbye..
We both have our dreams,
We both wanna fly."

During this period of your O'lvls
intensive..
I must say it does affect our relationship.
So again i'm cutting detailed points,
and this is the conclusion..

If you could go back to 28th Feb 2008,
Would you accept me if you know this
is how it'll be??
Would you still accept me if you know
you could do so much better in
your studies now if you hadn't accept me??

Right now,
we're both still 17-16.
You've got dreams and expections to fufill.
It's seems like never-ending and tough..
Baby it hurts me everyday,
it was never the temper you threw,
it was never your attitude,
it was never never anything you did
to me that hurts me but
it's the reason why you're doing all this..
Sometimes i just couldn't help but ask
myself.. "am i the cause..."

Our distance physically may be far but
my dear..
i don't want us to be far away
heart-to-heart.

Although i may be a sotong quite a times but,
i remember this and i meant it :

"No matter what,i just want the Best for you.
Whether i'm your boyfriend or not,
it's just a title.
As long as you're happy and
i'll be too "

Baby it was at the carpark when i
said this to you..
=)

I'll always be around when you need me,
Love you girl...

Guess i'm gonna end this..
Anyways i cant sleep either,
read my blog le come tagg uhs!
tagg le come talk to me on MSN.
kiss you gdnite bloggy.
x33

Reality = Boundaries

In this world,
People wants Certificates,
people wants Cars,
People wants House,
People wants Money,
People wants to be Regconized!

Hahas Who dont want it??
But we living in this ...
World of Reality Dont realize
for we have already gotten use
and just took it as it is.
How many actually knows reality
is a curse!
Instead of going to the moon,
reality binds you down to Earth.
Instead of Flying in the skies,
Reality TEARS down those wings of
courage...
All i can say is my friends,
Dont live in Reality,
For being this way you're just
Surviving on Earth from the day you're
born to the day you die.
Live a life of no regrets,
LIVE in this world!!
NOT SURVIVE!

Well quite alot things had been
happening lately it's just that
my life is finally looking like
it's upside down...

i miss you girl...
say "iloveyou"
say "youmissme"

Remember i told you before baby??
Best part of Love,
is to Love...
The Happier you are,
the happier i am..
The sadder you are,
the sadder i'll...

i've no intention of leaving but only
to Stand by you always!

Trying Hard To Bring You Smiles.

For all i know,
Baby havent been visiting my blog much.
Well cant blame,
it's like almost a dead blog now.
Somewhat become like an alternative to
show my feelings through words.

Now is in the afternoon. 3.20pm
Earlier had a misunderstanding with my
darling then later on become quite bad.
I know she's pissed,she's moody,
she's angry,she's sad.
All kinds of feelings as juggling in
her except happy.

*Oh God,
Have you been listening to my prayers?
or my prayers didnt manage to reach you..

Baby,
Just wanna let you know if you've come
to visit.
Take note that this background,
is dedicated for you..
I know i hadnt been the same,
For i'm trying to become a man.
And baby dont worry,
i'll be praying for you like i always did.
Loving you like never before.

I've always been much more patience
and my tolerance were much higher in
the past..
I do understand it's a very stressful period
for you and i'm sorry not treating you well.
Even though we may have quarrels,
tiff,misunderstanding.etc.
No matter what you're still my baby
and i'll always stand by you [:

Now my family is breaking up,
financially much more Unstable,
Due date on my cash problems,
So many thigns are haunting me
every sec i'm breathing right now.

Baby i'm sorry but i do have my reasons..

Words Kills.

People don't realize how much hurt every single word they say
to the other party.
So i'm not really gonna say anything bad about anyone.
Just sharing things that happened as General.

So...
Blog *Updated.
Blogskin Changed cause this Tiger Cub is so cute!!
Hmmmm...Just had a minor tiff with my darling baby,
Was feeling heavy-hearted as though i can sink straight
to Hell.
Then i don't know why,
i just tell myself to pray??
People always says : "it helps!"
You won't know until you tried it isn't it??
As soon as i dedicated my time into Prayers,
i felt lightened immediately,
was feeling so much more comfortable,
worse thing is...
i think i'm Addicted to it!

Well aniways my baby's now had calm down and so had i.
Wished her off to bed since she got school tomorrow,
Then i shall stay up all the way with 2nd Bro to Chiong studies.

Hahas Well,
Earlier on Today when down to Batok to meet my Buddy!
All of us (we 4 bros & Jess[baby] )when down to chat with her
and catch up.
Sadly we were "Jio Meng" . Or somewhat like challenged bahs,
Hahas worse part is that Guy uses "Stare-Stare" as a reason
to come find trouble with us.
Well he sure is childish & arrogant & ignorant.
I also don't wanna let loose details regarding it since it's
already "settled".
All i can do is to wish him best of Luck. ((:

Other then that,
Today is rather a tiring day and let's hope i will do well fer my
Exams.
Gambateh!! Roar!!

i've returned to my blog ...

ya knw...
actually there's alot of things in my mind i wanna write,
but my brain juz hurts lik shit nw (:

hahas life's been normal (not until recently)
things lik i've accepted Jesus Christ into
my life.
things like participated Outreach event of CHC.

Well here's the thing tht juz happened recently..
the beggining of the story is tht my brother owes smeone 300m(mesos)
according to my father discussion with tht smeone,
i'm suppose to "clean my bro's ass".
Now tht responsibility of 300m mesos is on me.
i've gt 1month time to get tht mesos..
i knw i could never do it on my own...
i've tried asking help from my sworn bro,
thy've contributed,thy slogged thier life for me.
thn i've gt nobody else to turn to animore,
so i let down my pride i approached my girl for help.
in the middle things were rather smooth verbally,
estimated to hav 300m no sweat.
things ends up today :
i've got a good scolding from baby.
(baby : i said u condemn me,nt ur phnecalls. )
in between u wanted me to let u help,
i'm glad and grateful.
u told me to trust ue..
i did..
so i did nothing.
(baby : it's true,i fuckcare the whole mesos thing)
i knw u've slogged ur life for me.
...
i'll cut my feelings away for tht would be too long and i'm going crazy
...
the fact is,
yes i heckcared bout mesos thingy,
i nv gave a damn to save up for the mesos thing,
i nv bothered much aboutit..

it really hurts me when ue dont knw tht i rather have those money spend
on you thn returning tht debt..
where all my money gone???

i'll tell ue where,
on the smile of ur face...

i really wanna cry my heart out,
i knw wad i did was wrong...
so i've nv argued back.

i wont regret the choice i've made even this happened..
a smile on your face is worth it all...


baby i'm sorry i failed as a boyfriend..
nights..