Love lik Heaven,Hurts lik Hell

Seriously speaking,
If i could have fallen asleep,
i would have just done so.
I'm totally moodless and feeling
literally,
"heartless"
But thinking back i'm so sure,
tht i've gt a heart.
why???
Coz it has been weighing for lik,
few 100 tons for half of today.
I can hardly feel myself breathing,
my chest is so heavy and tight that
i feel lik juz jumping dwn from
anyplace would be a better feeling.
Unexplainable Pain,
it's really really painful.

On one hand,
My baby...
Am i really such a person to you??
No sense of urgency,
No sense of time,
No Respect to even those tht had passed on??
Am i lik that??
It's been very painful all along...
i dont care,
i tahan...
Yes i'm a GUY,
Insensitive,
Always Late,
Over-playful,
etc etc.
There was so many times i wanna
breakdown and cry..
i cant..
When i always think back about
you,
i remembered..
How ur ex treated ue..
How thy made ue so upset..
How thy rob ue of ur joy..
How thy betray ur trust..
How thy hurt ue lik hell..
& i'll always rmb my promise
and tell myself,
i'm not gonna be lik them.
i'm gonna make you happy,
i'm gonna let u trust once more,
i'm gonna love you lik heaven.
Sometimes even you did things lik,
kup phne,
talk to me in aggressive manner,
shunt me a cold shoulder,
i didnt really lik em..
in fact i hate em..
the reason i nv said a word was becoz,
i wanna proof to you,
not all guys are the same.
i wanna proof to you,
i really love you lik nobody's buisness..
i really do...
The fact tht i'm writing all these
down are not for sympathys,
not for forgiveness,
not for pride nor glory.
i write it down is becoz i want YOU,
to know i really do love you.

Yes,the most hurtful of hurts cmes frm you.
(and u always hurt me by accident)
But the best of the loves cmes frm you too!

fer nw i guessed tht's most of the thing,
dont wanna slp 1st...
wait fer Darling call see if she wants me
pei her to jurong.

i hope darling will feel better after a slp.

-Failing as ever,the Failure,MK.-