Heh...i cant sleep!!!

Kaoz...jialat.
It's been lik centuries since i last felt so
,stress,confused,blur,desperate,pressure...wadeva it is.
This feeling...is really giving me hard time.

Gal,i've still gotta say 1st.
No matter wad,i'll hang on.
Be it wadeva Problems it's gonna be,
i will not give up.

I know wad i wanted all along ddear.
It's you gal...
it's you...
Other thn you i really dun wish to think about
other things no more,
which in the end i still did...

I've been so clear of this religion thing all along.
I'm a buddhist,and i'm gonna stick to it.
But i'm learning Christianity so far (:
Ddear u once told me,u juz wanted ur love ones to know...
This believe tht you're dedicating ur life to,
i know.
Even if tht's the case,even if i'm learning,i'm intrested,
i believe it's true and all...Doesnt mean i have to be a chritian rite?
i know you didnt force,but i want you to know...
Not being one Doesnt mean i dont understnd wad it's all abt.

I just dont wanna disapoint you...
i felt myself crushed under ur question,
y?? coz i really Love you so much tht i dont wanna
give a answer which will make u sad or disapointed.
Although we do not believe in the same religion,
But we believe in our Love for one another.
Being True,
At least,
I can Love you whole-heartedly,
w/o feeling guilty of anithin.
Juz purely Love.

It's just tht i really felt,
so full of stresses...
Tht's y i wanna write it out.
Sry dear...
Tht's so much i can think of...
i juz hope after a nights slp i would be better,
of coz plus a dream of you & me wld be Best (:
Right now i juz feel lik stabbing myself off to bed,
my darling,i know u'll understnd wad i mean,
but i still wanna say sorry coz i've yet again,
brought you nohting bt disapointment.
sorry...
"Loving you with all my Heart~"