Dream-Infinity

.....

2010-04-04T15:32:00.002+08:00

Dont bother.
i couldn't be like how others can.
It's like i always said, im just
a sucker.

i couldnt be so great like wha you
would do for me.
Plus, i really dont deserve it at all.

no point debating on,
conclusion,
i'm no good to you, no good for you.
i'm a ungrateful bastard and doesn't
care about you.

yeaps, so i guess that should be enough
to answer everything and we need not
raise this matter again anymore.

my turn to say...
FML FML FML FML!
!@$#*!)$^@#!#!@##!@!@@Y*@$^*&^*#!&^#@&*!#^@

Disappointed

2010-04-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

After so much that has happen,
i can tell that everything was just
me lying to myself.
Guess it wasn't always sweet sweet love
for you, i'm too naive to always thought
i have given, have loved, have cared and
understood you enough.
Now i truly know it was NEVER.

It is my fault for not taking out time
spending quality time with you. But i will
not accept it that if you say guys do NOT
know it.
Since that i never understood and never
given and loved you enough, i rather you
leave me be and forget me ASAP and get on
your way to find someone better.
Don't make things so hard for yourself,
save yourself all the heartbreak and heartaches.
I don't like to be in a triangle, so do you.

After that TEST, i really don't know what to do,
or how else should i feel.
All my short-comings and being such a jerk
despite trying my best, i apologize to you.
And all the heart i've given to you and that
you dont feel is enough, i'm sorry that i'm
unable to give you enough.

Guess i'll never find someone whom would trust
me even if i'm not worth it.
HAHAS that'll be unless "God is a girl" !!

Whatever it is,
i sincerely wish for the best in your life
and that you'll never find a jerk like me
anymore.
May God bless you and guides you to your
True one.

.emo king is back.

Yet another day.

2010-03-31T20:15:00.002+08:00

Time really flies...
I find that as i get older time is really speeding up!
Hmmmm... Have been abit slacked for the past 2 weeks
training. This week pump up a little standard, aiming
for breakthrough in this area as well.

NS letter still havent send me a letter regarding when
am i gonna enlist! (slowpokes!)
One thing for sure it's definitely this year.
I also realized my english standard dropped! Count myself
lucky still able to remember some BOMBASTIC words like..
"BOMBASTIC" (-.-)

I'm still working in the warehouse at Pasir Panjang.
Life's alright, work is fine, training still going on,
still breathing, friends still alive, Church still shines.

Relationship wise is always in a mess, guess most probably
due to my bad habit of being half-hearted.
Well it's not an habit to be easily overcome, especially for me!
It's been with me ever since im in secondary one!.
I'm really trying to change that though...
I do find my temper getting worst as well :
"what you desire is what you will be."
I find that this few months all i wanted to do was to train,
get fit, get stronger, wanna start fighting/sparring around
to get myself closer to my dream of becoming a champion in the
area of martial arts. Due to this thinking, depressing and
pressuring thoughts came, getting really impatient about my
goal and it leads to bad temper! Small matters or big matters
all i think of is get ready for a fight!
Hahas on this area i'll have to re-tune my mindset that's for
sure.

Easter day is coming! It's gonna be holiday and church is gonna
be really busy! Friday to Sunday totally wont be free!
Helping out with the Hostel event, trying to bring my friends for
the drama as well. Hopefully they will come!
Cellgroup is great, everyone is ready for this busy weekend and
everyone is just going all out!
Really looking forward to these 3 days.

The week seems to be alright,
the only bad thing is that Friday is Easter no work,
then changed to SATURDAY! (-.-)

That's about me for now,
When time permits i'll post soon.
Takecares all~

Again.

2010-03-21T18:42:00.003+08:00

Recently these song has been running in my head again and again.
Something about the song...captivated me.

Hmmmmm...
Recently i have been working out, slimmed a little can say. :P
Currently waiting for NS letter, definitely enlisting this year though.
Working part-time in a warehouse, low pay as always.

i guess this are mostly the things i can say.. for now bahs..
Enjoy the song ;D

What the heck anyways...

2009-12-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i really wanna blog.
I even forgot my blog address !! >.<
What the heck anyways...

Finally got the mood to post something,
better do it quick. Past few times always
ran outta mood halfway through,
Not gonna happen TODAY!
Well...What the heck anyways..

I've also been thinking alot recently,
i think too much to the extend that even
I myself knows i'm thinking too much >.<
What the heck anyways...

What i'm about to share is very personal !

For two times i've been into a relationship,
and for this two times i've given all my heart.
I'm not asking for anything from anyone,
not asking much from anyone. It just seems that
when everything comes to an end, it's just
like that... Nothing.
I've never seem to be that something deep in
your heart, it just seemed like my love is
only that much to you...
I know i may not be somebody who can spend
money like water,can be there anytime anywhere.
i know i may not be good-looking and etc..
All i know is that i've given my whole heart
into it, and it doesnt seem to be appreciated
very much.
Aiya What the heck anyways...

Nobody owes me any sorry and i dont need no
sorry. I love out of my own will and i do not
regret it,and will not regret it.

I suddenly remembered this question..
you asked me :"To be love or be love ...
which one do you think is more better/blessed ?"
And awhile ago after me and Jess broke up,
my dad told me:"It is always better to BE LOVE,
then to love someone."
For a short while i thought to myself,
IT's TRUE! but not...
I remembered my answer to Jess before..i said
"It is more blessed/better to Love then to be Love."

And it will never change no matter how many failed
relationships i have to go through...
May God help me remain strong in this sentence and
that no matter what happens, i'll never forget it.

Now my life is just dead...
Christmas no longer means anything...
Grrrr...What the heck anyways.
Nobody will even know my blog lahs >.<

WHAT THE HECK!!!
so be it...

My only last request.

2009-12-07T20:22:00.002+08:00

Back awhile ago, i'm still wondering if i did the right thing.
Now i know, It was the right thing to do.

I don't need to know what other people think about it,
I don't need people to know my heart,
all i cared about was you and only you alone.
I just feel broken on how you see my heart,
i thought i had been doing good for you,
i always thought my heart of sincerity and love,
you always felt,but now i guess not...

it doesnt really matter now coz it happens all the time.

I sincerely hope that things will turn out better
for you.

i won't expect anyone to believe my heart and my words,
but even you don't...

That's it

2009-11-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

Dont ask me to take part anymore lah ok?
I wish all the best for your talent showcase,
jiayou.

i know it's always been me,
me
me
me
me
me
me
me
..
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Aiya i too sian to think of everything lahs,
wadeva bad things also me,
wadeva good things dont have me,
i think if this is part of moulding process,
then im destined to be a psycho.

You'll always be my baby..

2009-11-21T10:07:00.005+08:00

This is the song i've always wanted to sing to you.
Hahas i guess that's the thing about me,
always didn't fufill my promises to you.
This song is my answer to you why i always called
you "Baby" (=

Well now that it has come down to this,
i guess there's no need to continue blogging no more.
The only person that will read my blog was only you,
but i'll leave this last blog here for you. (=

Why i loved you?
You've always been beautiful,always had been
the sunshine in my life.
Other then God, you're the only one that dwelt
in my heart.
At times you're so elegant yet at times,so slack!
At times you're so innocent yet at times,so WILD!
It is hard to be yourself in this World,
and that i thank you for being yourself with me,
And i loved every single bit of You.
From your mesmerizing eyes to your cute little toes :P
You've prioritize me 1st among all other things else,
that's more then enough to show your character and
your Love for your other half.
There's so many small little things that i loved about
you...ranging from your Soft NOSE!...your chewy lips!...
your Warmth whenever you hugged me...
There is just so much to say but too limited vocabs.

It don't matter what other people say about
your Love to me cause i've felt it. But i just want
to let you know your Love to me, has exceeded all the
sweetest of words and the most expensive presents.
Your Love is everything

There is just too many regrets,
My final wish is that you'll be happy,
No matter what. ;)
Saranghaeyo,
Baby.

============================================
You'll always be a part of me...
I'm a part of you indefinitely..
Girl don't you know you can't escape me..
Ooh Darling cause you'll always be my baby..
And we'll linger on..
Time can't erase a feeling this strong..
No you're never gonna shake me..
Ooh Darling cause you'll always be my baby..
============================================

Blogging through phone!

2009-10-15T00:54:00.002+08:00

hahahaha.. First time blogging through
Phone. Coooool ~
Still not very used to the keyboard on
the phone.don't know need type till when then can blog finish.. -.-

Anyway im kinda nt in the mood to blog as well... Will blog otheer times. Tc ppl

FREE MAN!!`

2009-08-07T21:40:00.002+08:00

I'm finally free from my debt.
I'm kindda happy about it but looking back,
there's actually nothing much to be happy about.
Now that i'm a free man i'm a POOR MAN! ...
And that looking back all these while i find that
i'm actually always for nothing i stir a huge
trouble and worries for myself when things were
just very simple.

There's some very special people i wanna thank :
S46 - Always blessing & understanding me all the
time, giving me the right advise at ther right time.

Wenjie/Hongkai - I know it's vry bastard of me
dragging these matter so long, but still thank you guys
for the extra understanding given to me.

Gabriel - If it's not for your flyers i don't think
i would have got the cash to pay my debt off.

Darling - Thank you honey, your actions always speaks
louder then your word. It's been hard for you even till
today. You've done more then enough for me. ILY<33 (=

God - My Father in Heaven,Your mercy and your Grace
are always more then enough. Without you helping me
out throughout this whole period,i don't know where
will i be now. So Highest praise to you,God.

Another thing has been a concern in my heart all this
while is this..
-Why do i need constant reminder that i have a big Brother!
Is it because he is slowly fucking off my life??
Is it because he is too tired everyday to come admralty to
meet us??compared to going to Jurong which he feels it's
Nearer??
Is it that it's no longer Brother-4-Life but Felicia Felicia
Felicia is all about Him??
Is it because He forgot to bring phone most of the times and
can hardly contact us??
Is it because MSN too lag and that no replies were given most
of the time?? or sometimes too lag to even start a convo??

i don't know man.. You know who i'm talking about.
You are not stupid. In fact so much brighter and smarter then
all of us. If you ever read this, tell me...
Should i remember it once and for all and never forget??
OR
Should i forget it onc and for all and never remember it??

Will be waiting. (=

Miss my girl. Loves her, alot...

Feeling the rythm.

2009-08-05T17:14:00.002+08:00

Back to posting again.
Nothing much to actually say except,
Sian..

Can't really start enjoying riches
unless my debts are all paid off.
Before i go Malaysia along with
Honey's family i must get my debt
paid off once and for all.
Living in debt sucks.For a moment
greediness i fell into debt for a
year plus till now.
I missed life debt-free...

Well i'm really looking forward to
paying it off,hopefully no complications
will arise throughout this period.

Hmmmmm...
Maybe some interesting part about
what i'm thinking about nowadays? (=
DRUMMING:
Recently i'm kinda interested in Drum,
it's kinda cool and favorite of mine
compared to others instrument.
But it's kindda hard to learn,
the investment for the drum and etc..
I don't dare to think much about it
except hoping for miracles! =P
Muaythai/MMA:
Martial Arts has always been my all
time favourite so i guess there's
really nothing much to talk about it.
Architecture:
This one's tough..The only career i
will be doing w/o whining and complain.
Definitely i think i got wat it takes
to shine and exel in this career.
BUT,recent shocking news came to me..
I need at least a MASTER DEGREE in
Acrchitecture before i can get the
10k salary.. So to put it blunt it's
All Or Nothing...

WELL...All of the above have some similiarities.
#1-I NEED MONEY!!
#2-I'M DREAMING!!

But, these 3 things would probably be the
direction i'm heading.

Relationship with my Dear is pretty stable,
we're good. Still Love love her. XD
Other relationships are kindda complicating..
Hopefully life would get better as i breakfree
from the curse of debt..

cya ppl~

Long time no post!! Again...

2009-07-14T19:17:00.002+08:00

Hahhas i understand i havent been posting for a long time.
Computer's down, i'm sure almost everyone do know that (=

There's really nothing pretty much to blog about.
Except for my Birthday??
Hahas it;s been great! I felt so blessed on my birthday
so i did my best for the only recent upcoming event :
"What's your colour?"

Well i wanna thank my baby too ! XD
I think without her i wouldnt have had such a lovely B'day.

Wanna thank all that really blessed me, remembered me on my birthday,
Thanks ya' all!

Well.. me and baby are going pretty well..
Still missing her everyday single day of coz..
Hang on baby, i know times tough on you,
always believe and stand strong. I'll be there (=
Love you ;)

Hehez... time to wake my sleeping beauty up ^^
cao~

My Sleeping Beauty...

2009-07-02T16:57:00.002+08:00

Hahas no doubt my computer is still dead.
Thanks to Baby, i used her laptop to post.
Definitely she's not nagging or wadever coz she's
already become a sleeping beauty!!
Not just a sleeping beauty...
My sleeping beauty.

Haven't seen her sleeping so soundly for quite
sometimes le.
Hahas i tell you she LOOKS SO CUTE!(serious)

Recently had been thinking quite alot of coz..
Looking back at the life i've walked so far,
i just feel that i'm so stupid,so childish.
All the time i thought i've been living life
and this is all that i get,this is all that i can
achieve,this IS all that is to life.

Ya'know one thing i find that all mature people do
come to realize of one thing that is :
"what your parents had said before."

I now start to slowly see what all my parents are
slowly coming into pieces before my eyes..
Hahas on conclusion, i'm thinking about maturity.
Maybe it's really time to grow up, step up,be a man.
As you grow mature and you now look at this world in
another perspective,Yea! it's true those are the good
old days BUT seriously, you can't help laughing at
how you've wasted life. (=

I wouldn't say i've grown mature but, i start to see
things in another view bit by bit,slowly & steadily.
The feeling of growing up..

I think the same thing applies for my relationship,
both to my Sworn Brothers & my Darling.

Brothers:
I don't know you guys,but i feel that we each have
our Destiny.No point stopping here and there at times
to think of a common topic to bring closeness.
Maybe Let's really enter adulthood together!
We're definitely people of different personality,
people of different backgrounds,people heading towards
different directions..We have our different lives!

I wanna see us all as successful people life,
i definitely wish i can too..
At least now i know,it is where i should go.

Darling:
Hey baby,i know you've been going through this hard
time recently..
Don't worry i'll always be around,i promised. (=
I'll try to treat you better again like how i used to.
Achieving balance is still prefered but i'll treat you
better definitely.

I love you, sleeping beauty.. x333

Hahas wake up ler!!
LOG OUT!!

Urgent News!!

2009-06-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

Yet another day..

2009-05-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

It's been the 3rd day of my muscle cramp,
doesn't feel good at all.
But but but looking back the result of the
training i felt that my hard work and peserverence
had paid off.
Now i'm gonna work harder to get my tummy
slim down and cut off some weights of course.
Why do i grow only HORIZONTALLY!!
Anyways my arm's recovering quite well. hooray!

Hahas recently have this thinking of forming
a Dota-Allstars team. Well it's just a thinking
of course but sounds fun to me so far.
And i do find that i'm improving in the game too!

Now i've got an aim that is to earn money and pay
off the PSP which i've yet to pay off and also
to get me enough money to pursue after one of my
all time dreams that is to become a strong
fighter.
I had my eyes on Evolve Martial Arts Gym down at
Dhoby.Reckon the fees ain't gonna be cheap but
i'm not giving up either.
Evolve here i come!!

I'm still ok with my darling baby,
Hopefully she's still handling her stuffs out well.
I'm recently thinking about what to do next week
as the schedule is in a mess.
She's flying off for holidays soon and i'm gonna
miss her. Figuring when can we had our Sakura
next week,as well as the "Night At The Museum 2"
that i promised i'll watch with her.
Hahas hopefully everything will fall in place
well enough .

This week's busy busy.
Friday got cell group Outreach,CYCLING!!
Saturday i'm going out to play LAN with Wenjie
& Bros. Around night i guess.
Sunday Church and slack !
(Gonna go distribute fliers one of these days.)

Phrase of the day:
It is not how heavy the load breaks you,
it's how you carry it.

Well that's all for today,time to sleep.
Tomorrow need wake up darn early...
-Siansation-

Training's tough..

2009-05-19T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today school's as usual, like any other boring day.
After school went for self-training.(fitness)
I found out that i can't even run 1.6km now,
struggling to breathe after the 1st km.
Wonder how can i make it for the 2.4km this upcoming
Thursday.

Well, this is my training today :
-1.2km jog
-10 upside down sit-ups(3 reps)
-10 knuckle push-up(3 reps)
-10 squats(3 reps)
-50 incline pull-ups(chiong!!)
-Kick tree till "Baluku" (T.T)

Tiring day.
Missed baby.
Had dinner with honey at 630 kopidiam.
Then pei her walked with Nana,
then back home.

So far so good,hopefully tomorow will be
better.

cao~!

is it time to wake up now??

2009-05-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

It seems like i've been sleeping and dreaming
all this while.
Wonder is it time to wake up and really do
something for myself,at least.
Reality is really hitting me hard on the face,
so painful i can't ignore it.

Well anyway nothing much happened today.
Morning Church,then pei baby,home do some arm
training..
Now looking at the computer screen thinking
of what to blog.
Did a little less arm training then usual cause
my shoulder is strained so i didn't really wanna
push it too hard.
Oh well, nothing much to add-on for today..
Goodnight then .
:)

i need to get A-Life!!

2009-05-17T01:07:00.004+08:00

Hahas i refer to getting a LIFE(Alive).
Life's really boring for me now, feeling dry.
Looking around seeing people living LIFE,
it really makes me jealous.
All the more i see,all the more i must strive!
Recalling back what someone told me:
"Do you want to be looked down all the time?"
Simple sentence that makes huge impacts in lives.
Nobody wants to be looked down upon,everyone
wants to be able to held their heads up high.
Thinking of this LIFE thingy just brings me
nothing but stress...

Random quotes of certain Movies that impacted me:

-X-Men 2-
Storm :Having Fear can help you stay Alive.
Night Crawler :So can FAITH.

-Fast&Furious Tokyo Drift-
Sean's Dad :The nail that sticks out gets hammered.

(This one's super cool..)
-Fast&Furious 4-
Dom(VinDiesel) :Pussy~

These is the more up to date things in my life:
-Getting my body ready for more "challenges" up ahead.
-Trying hard to be a good Brother & a good BoyF.
-Waiting for current Course to finish ASAP.
-Thinking of what to blog everyday...(im serious -.-|||)

guess that's for today,
cheers people.
-

Lazy to Blog

2009-05-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

Yet another boring post...Or at least i hope not.
As you can see the title simply
tells you that i AM lazy to blog.

Let's start with today..
Hmmmm well i gave out some flyers today, it was
pretty good and smooth sailing. only comes the bad
part when the dogs start to bark.. Grrrrrrr..WOOF!
Then after that slack and rested back at home,
waiting for the time to past till Movie Time with
my Bros. Watched Angel&Demons.
Overall i rate it 8/10.
For those who haven't watch the movie...
Don't expect to see Angels fighting Demons,literally.
It's more of a thrill and abit of deep catholic
history. Even if you're NOT a christian you'll
still enjoy the plots as well.

Well after which of coz WALKED home with Dear. =]
Then back at her place, she took her dog down for a
walk under the block.
Great day today,at least not bad??

Hmmmmm...
Maybe a little update on my life..(Indept)
I'm asking myself who am i..
I'm asking myself what do i want..
I'm asking myself where am i suppose to go..
I don't even know myself, how am i going to move on
further in life..
There's still lots of question haunting my juicy brain
but at least i rounded up a few Aims in life i
wanted to achieve:
1.Famous Architect.
2.Fighter that can take down 20 person at once.
3.Drive my all time favorite Skyline GT-R 34.
4.Lovely wife that Loves me for who am i.

Shall see how my life goes on, what a unpredictable
story.

Thanks for reading. (and please tag if you've read.)

Things are slowly going back to normal...heng ah

2009-05-13T00:19:00.002+08:00

As usual, i like to do stunt.
Blog died then alive then died then alive etc...

Hmmmm... Recently just happened loads of stuff,
sets me thinking of my future.

This time i'm not posting much cause i really
got nothing much to say too.

All i can tell you guys is,
have a aim and direction in life.
So when crisis comes and takes you off course,
you know where is your destiny.

Takecares.

The little effort that saves Lives..

2009-04-13T22:49:00.003+08:00

Just now baby suddenly popped this question :
"What will be the most unforgettable thing(s) about me?"

I'm not stuck at that question but it really sets me
thinking back,since when was the last time i really
sit down and think about positive points of people
rather than always being so critical on almost everyone.

Is it exaggerating to say by writing out on a person's
positive point could really saves his/her lives???
My answer would be a very firm Yes.
Some people get sick and tired of their lives because
they thought they live for nothing,they thought their
just some "good-for-nothings" !! It just takes someone to
actually tell them of the other wonderful side of them
and let them know they are worthy and wonderful people
in this world!

Actually i'm suppose to just write about Darling's but i
told her i'll be doing a Special Post for today!
So i'm gonna write about some of the Most important peeps
in my life.

Darling//Jessica:
You are always there for people when they needed you.
No matter how far,how long,how uncomfortable is it,
You will always be there for your Loved ones w/o fail.
Your Selflessness has always be admirable and definitely
Unforgettable..
Always carrying the burdens for your beloved regardless
of how heavy or painful it would be for you. You had
your heart for others first, rather then yourself.

Your love for peace in this world is as beautiful as
you for it comes from your heart.Such huge love even
for this forsaken world that many had given up hope on.
Faithful and Hopeful you are in everything you do,always
striving for better is your style. With determination
you work and fight for the dreams you believe.

You hold high self-esteem of yourself,never to be looked
down by people around you.Always being the Big Sister for
those whose lives are broken and whose dreams are wrecked.
In times of need you will risk yourself and put everything
on the line whom you cared.Although soft and fragile you
are,you have a lion's heart.Being brave for the ones whom
you loves.

An Angel that steps up for the weak,
An Angel whose care & love embrace the broken,
An Angel with Determinations of iron steel,
An Angel that will always be there for you and me..
That will be Jessica.

Sworn Brother//Joey:
Sworn Brother//Chee Hwee:
Sworn Brother//Munkit:
Ex-Tao//Wenjie:
Cell Group(s46)//Irwin:
Cell Group Leader(s46)//Mingli:
Friend//ZhiXiang:

(writing in progress...thank you)

Back again with brand new Look!!

2009-04-13T05:27:00.002+08:00

Hahas sorry people...Bad habit.
Always like to change my skin after my blog
"died".

Well i've told dear i would be sleeping so
i guess i'll keep my updates till the next
post or so.
All in all... ain't good at all.
Maybe,just maybe..i'm considering adding
cellgroup into my blog too.
Having quite a little headache now so i
don't really have the mood to blog too..
argh i guess it's better for me to get some
rest.

Now the biggest Miracle that could really
happen to me is that money raining down from
the sky..
Just a poor @$$ now...

No money = Nothing!!

Hell'yea... *snores.....zzzz*

Breaking Through!!

2009-04-09T03:14:00.000+08:00

It's simply me to always start off
with the bad news..
#1 my pay doesnt hit the expected.
#2 PSP cannot payback 2nd hand..
#3 Quarrels,conflicts & etc...

Other than all the above things are
actually going quite alright in my
life so far.
Less than 1 week, my pay is already
half depleted. hardly have enough
cash to pay my debts, much less to
survive.Now is i cant even survive
much less enjoy..
Why cant Heaven just rain me some
money man!! damnit..
But still i wanna thank God for the
period of time when i was working..
Enjoyed my work,made some really good
friends,learnt some things too!!
Working in the arcade was "Lively"..
The only bad thing is that YOU WILL
be watching them play & play while
you serve their Arse. -.-
Overall, a pleasant working experince.

Kit & Chee was talking about that new
Drama. Plotting and the stories sound
cool, but one thing about the drama
that caught out attention is their
spirit.
The word Brother simply means..
BROTHER!
Now i'm shooting things off bluntly,
Eldest,take a look at us now..
If something is not done we'll fall.
A Dynasty cannot move forward w/o
a leader. You were chosen the leader
of us. Show us that you care man!

Because of what is happening in
between us now i've searched my soul
and asked myself. i know that they
know that God knows that i'm guilty.
Now it has come to the point where
i really must do something..
Thanks to 4th bro, Kit.
Whom made me realize and understand.
If i can treat a stranger better,
maybe it's time i do the same for
someone who has the same blood that
run through their veins as me...

Honey oh Honey...
Don't for one second think i dont
care about you alright? (:
You're not a burden in me so i can
never put you out of my mind,
can never stop thinking about you
cause you are already part of me
baby..
What ever is gonna happen in the
future we really don't know..
There's alot of things we still
gotta sort out together but one
thing you can always be assure is
that i'm yours faithfully.
i missed you everyday...
x333 muacks x333

Life's now taking it's course into
a whole new level.
It's always easy to go down but
never easy to go up..
Slowly making changes in life
hopefully i can still save certain
things that's lost..

And i still havent bath -.-
B-Y-E-B-Y-E

I've thought about it too...

2009-03-24T08:50:00.000+08:00

yea i just came back after whole night out with kit.
When i came back i'm actually supposed to head to
bed but who ask me hand itchy go turn on my computer
and tap into baby's blog..

Looking at your blog i felt tremendous rise of
emotions in me...
i'll try my best to say what i can say..

Basically i feel that i'm so stupid,
should have went to find out the song lyrics
you were singing about along.
Now that i found it,here it is :
Suppose I called you up tonight and told you that I loved you
And suppose I said "I wanna come back home".
And suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson"
And I'm tired a-spendin' all my time alone.

If I told you that I realised you're all I ever wanted
And it's killin' me to be so far away.
Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together?
Or would you simply laugh at me and say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours to and take my hand?
Would we get that old time feelin', would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began?

Would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you'd been so lonely
And you waited for the day that I return.
And we'd live in love forever and that I'm your one and only
Or would you say the tables finally turned?

Would you say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

"Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

Now that i've seen and understand what you're trying to tell me..
I guess all i can say is,
"Make sure that guy is better than me."

Suddenly your random questions does make sense already,
crystal clear . =D
All along i do know you were heartbroken and all, i'm sorry
i couldn't be the guy there for you..
"But it does seems like that new guy is doing alright?"

At point i thought you really can understand that i'm
really going through tough period now..
i guess maybe you did? but not that much bahs..
School,Work,Debt etc.. They ARE Burdens!
You ,brothers,Family. Not Burdens!

But one thing i know now why you didn't share your
problems etc. with me anymore..
Hahas because :
"tell you also no use"
Right?? (=
That's true so i don't deny one bit.

Somewhat i gotta get some rest.. gotta work later on..
*Above written there's some sarcacism but there's still
things in there written with my heart.
*Below is what i really really wanna say..

You know honey..
You've been a good girlfriend so far.
It's really because of you that has
make me change into someone better,
let me understand more of what is
Love..
You've always tried hard to be there
for me and always Loved me.

If that day were to come i would
remember everything of you.
Everything...
Couldn't be more,couldn't be less.

I don't want to break your heart
again..i really don't want to..
You deserve someone better than me.
So if that someone New you've found,
can give so much more ...
By all means,tell me about it.
I'll let you go...
with all my sincere blessings,
and with no regrets.
(And i mean REALLY BETTER THAN ME)

"Your smile is worth letting you go.."

Maybe i'm heading to bed le.. Hope i can wake up in time for work,
GG MK..
just wish you were here..
good morning..

Midnight post

2009-03-15T03:24:00.000+08:00

It's 3.30am and i'm still alive and kicking.
Thought i should blog more if not the blog
will be announced dead in no time.

Today's been pretty much of a boring day..
Eat,Sleep,Slack,Work.
Nothing much special except i was late this
morning for work. Darling called me at 11am,
woke up and went back to sleep and woke up
again at 12pm!!Oh my i'm Late!! BIG TIME!!
I just took a quick bath etc...Didn't eat
and i took my bike rushed down to admiralty.
i was around 45min late, Boss gave me a chance
,got quite a few nags from her today as well.
Overall when i was working i was thinking of
eating!!

My pay's coming at 7th April somehow i hope
it's still on time for my debt as it's :
" Before April ends. " (is this what i said?)
or is it:"Before April." (it's a big difference!)
No matter what my first pay is going out for my
debts... GG!

Having to work meaning having lesser time for my
own life. I've got little time with my Bros...
little time with my girl..little time with my
cellgroup friends..lesser time to workoutmy body
as well.

Anyways,thank God i'm able to change my schedule
next week, missed church this week...so bad..
And i've just updated this song for my blog,
Anthem1. Old school Techno, Enjoy.

My eyes are dry.. this will tell me that it's time
for BED!!
C'mon,who wants the honour of telling me a
bedtime story???
no one once!?
no one twice!!?
no one thrice!!!?
NO ONE???! Fine.
Goodnight -.-
(P.s it's plainly a joke,hoped you laughed?)

My Gawd! I'm BACK!

2009-03-13T02:27:00.000+08:00

Back again after my blog died-ed and revived and so on...
Well first of all, i feel that is definitely a pretty cool
Blogskin. (= (although it's a little red, bear with it :P )

Oh yes, Suddenly remembered Jarl gave a friendly tag/comment
in my Cbox saying : "sucks...you blog sucks."
Sad to say that really hurts. )=
Happy to say thanks alot though.
Look,funny guy.. i don't know you're joking or not but this
is definitely not funny.
If it sucks, pls give me more detailed comment so i could
make it "not so sucky" . Your Understanding would be very
much appreciated.

Oh well i just started working recently @ CCK-Lot1-ZoneX.
miss me? come down find me. :D
Working totally sucks,but arcade life's pretty slack.
But of course the pay is low, need to face Beng's & Lian's
almost everyday..
Hahas one thing about working in arcade is that, you see people
playing you will feel like having a grip on it too!!
That brings an opening to my newly hooked-on-to game :
Initial D Stage 5.
Newest Initial D version, shipment arrives today and fixed.
It's totally brand new,cool. For car lover people, and for people
who can live with the cost.(Super Expensive!!)
But the graphics,steering wheels,DRIFTS,cars,etc..
It's all worth it.. :D
P.s Haven't spend a single cent on it yet :P

Ever since i started working my time management went a little
cocked-up ever since. (grrrrrrrrrrr....)
Got so little time to enjoy and slack,now everyday also work le..
Having school in the morning and sleeping almost @ 3 every night,
it's really pretty tiring..

Missed my baby,
Hope you can find a way to get out of the boredom
you're having now soon.
I know you're still trying to get used, jiayou! ;D
Definitely hoping for more time with you,
but it's hard.
sorry honey,
Still Loves,Loving you, Will Love you...
iloveyou!! x333

i guess i shall stop for today,
Not everyone will be reading my whole blog anyways,
BUT but but.. I'll try to Blog more for my Loyal Fans! :D
so long... goodnights!

Happy & Sad

2009-03-05T02:38:00.000+08:00

Let's start with happy things that happened today on
05/03/2009.
The only thing that made me felt happy was just this
plain and simple *New Blogskin!! Of coz it's damn obvious
they are Digimon.(People who don't know really got
no life man!)
I was browsing through the blogskins on website and
THIS blogskin captured my heart. Why??
It reminds me of my childhood days, happy and stress-free!
Those were the happy days.Though i've no girlfriend back
then,no brothers back then but... Who cares?!
Life is full of Life!! Now as i gets older things gotten
so much complicating then before i couldn't help
missing the good old times..

Anyways do enjoy the song as well =)
i've never forgotten the song since the first time i watched
Digimon. Although i don't understand what the heck they're
actually singing but it's definitely a good piece of music.

Hahahahahaha...Now comes the Favourites!Sad part...
For once in my life i wanna try being different,
i wanna be selfish,insensitive,etc...
Bluntly i just wanna be a jerk,But guess what!! Life's so
Unfair until i can't even be a Jerk!c'mon!!

So many things had been happening recently and i've barely
got the time to take a few breath.. So many things running
through my minds and so many troubles to be troubled -.-

Is it really hard to take the initiative??
Is it really hard to take my temper??
Is it really hard to take a step back??
Is it really hard to REALLY UNDERSTAND
my reasons and answers towards certain things?!
Is it really really REALLY HARD, to be frank and honest
in No matter,Whatever,Wherever,Whenever,it is??

You know i really missed you everyday, you know no matter
what i still Love you... You want me to be Somebody,
Somebody i never wanted to be,won't even consider if it
isn't for you. You wanted to see changes,you wanted to see
improvements,i've tried hard and i have no guilt saying that
i gave my all to try and be that Somebody..

Ya know honey,all this burden on me...i really wanted to let
it go,it's because of you i held on.i couldn't bare to
because i know i still loves you and i am to be responsible
for you,to you. i really wish the next time things get ugly,
instead of saying stuffs like we're not made for each other,
i hope you'll change.. For me.. Change to suit me..
I'm willing to try and become the "Man of your Dreams",
are you willing to change and become the "Women of my Dreams"..

losing faith for this world...
losing love for mankind...
losing myself...

today is the 27th

2009-02-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

Honestly speaking i got not much of a mood to blog..
In Fact i'm in school,
teacher's teaching and my fingers are the only one
typing non-stop..
Waking finding that i actually got no mood to do
ANYTHING today (including school),i really wanted to
do nothing about it at all.
But still i'm going for cell group,i still came to
school coz i said i would be.

First thing i reach school i did was to tap into
Bee's blog.
I should have felt sad,
i should have felt astonished,
i should have felt angry..
wow i dont feel anything..
Past few weeeks in CHurch they preached about relationship,
i learned things from there. i tried to apply..
I wanna make you feel much more safe & comfortable in my arms..
i wanna let you know that i really do love you,
i'm still trying to prove that i am different..
No matter what i do i'll still be just a GUY in your eyes.

Yea, i'm mood swinging recently..sure you can see that.
i've only expect my Brothers..and you,
to know that i'm actually going through moodswings.
You saw, you told me you'll stay by,me be by my side etc..
Why is it that you're doing stuffs that pressures me?
why cant you be more tolerant towards me??
i don't ask for return in the past do i??
why am i asking it now??
Because i dont feel the return of your Love...

You want me go get a Diploma??
You want me go get a degree??

i guess it's never possible to ask a Princess
to step out of her comfort zone.

Revived

2009-02-05T00:21:00.001+08:00

Let's just say i was back by "Popular Demand" !!
*clap clap*

Life's kinda boring nowadays,
nothing happened in 2009 so far..
Debts and money shortage problem has
been worse then ever,
with World now slumbering into
economic crisis ..
There goes my $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ T.T

Anyways school life is still alright,
How bad can it be?? Can't be better anyways..

Games ...BORING!
All the games are really boring me..
Though just started training Dota,
as well as waiting to get my hands on for
the new game "Left 4 Dead".
Sought of like zombie shooting game,
Looks fun =D

That's the most recent upgrade i can
anyone, too bad it's really been dead bored
so far this year.
Nothing much pretty exciting happened yet
more of those brain-wrecking problems
coming up.

Gonna take a new picture of myself with that
long tail of mine soon,
cutting my hair soon.. (gonna miss it..)

Well guess that's all about it.

i sleep too much till my sleeping beauty leaving me soon.

2008-12-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

I'm usually not into blogging early in the afternoon.
Well yesterday was the 25th which is..
CHRISTMAS DAY!
Everything went quite smoothly on this
year 2008 though quite bumpy,
but December 2008 i flew off track.
i've been trying really hard,
to please,
to love,
to do whatever i can.

The burdens was too much for me,
i've hardly any rest enough to heal my heart.
All that i am depending on to push
myself to carry on was a simple phrase :
"iloveyou".
Maybe i start to sound a little pathethic??
I don't deny it is,afterall someone said :
"Sentimental & Sensitive guys are weak guys"
I myself is Sentimental.
i settle my problems 90% based on feelings,
10% based on reality and facts.
I myself is a very Sensitive guy,
and i mean DARN sensitive.
i said "bye" and you don't "bye" back,
it's either i go "caochibye" or
i'll go EMO for half a day.
Being sensitive and sentimental,
seriously ain't good...But this is me..
No matter what,
Sensitive or not..sentimental or not..
Life still has to go on.

Debt's uncleared,
Family distanced,
Relationship is getting messier rather
than merrier.
Upcoming road is tougher than before,
think i'm gonna get depression =x

Oh ya,
Turn one big round still havent tell
you guys why i blog in today afternoon.
It's because i'm a sleepy head,
a very heavy sleeper.
No mood to go and think about this anymore.

...detniopassiD

Facing Reality

2008-12-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

So far i believe & really believe that..
Everyone will have his problem.
And another thing is for sure,
Problems never end..

Facing Reality is seriously not easy..
money,money,money,money,money,money...
Everything is ;
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
I'm in debt,
in need of cash,
need money to honey etc..

2 days of working,
$120 in cash.
it's now drained to $0. in 3days time.
-.-

My father say Chee hwee smart,
Coz he very wise with money and priorities.
Good for him lor,
Bad for me coz he always see suey me..
Dont blame him though..

Afterall,i'm a failure in almost everything
i do..
At least this blog i still can write =x
Thanks fer reading oh' (=

Blog Alive...But i'm feeling so dead..

2008-12-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

No mood for picking words.
It may be a content-lacked,
with less beautiful words,
alive yet dead..

Honestly telling you guys out there,
my heart have been to hell.
Over and over and over again,
for what??
For one things that brightens up my world,
Her smile..
When a guy is so sure and ready to accept
this girl into his life,
he is so much ready to give in,give up,
sacrifice,and even to die for this future
he dreamed of every night he goes to sleep..

*The Sunshine no longer shines the Tower.*

Yes,i'm feeling very dead now,
quarreled with my dear..
I don't remember the details anymore,
it just hurts me so much i cant even bother
to think anything else..
My dear,your heart isn't just the one break,broke,broken.
My heart is pounded,grinded,powdered..
It's a serious misunderstanding girl,
and i'm sorry to let you get the wrong idea,
i really am..

One of my Brother,
I really am proud of him..
From a nobody now he's a somebody today,
why??
He knows his weakness and bad points,
he's been living with it and one day he just
couldn't take it anymore he faced it.
NOBODY IS PERFECT OUT THERE!NOBODY!
Everyone has a negative side,
it's always something that'll hurt you,
stop you from achieving greater things,
and it's always never easy to change.

*Baobei i loved you too much,i know by saying
those things would hurt you alot,yes i do.
Rather than people out there commenting on you,
i really couldn't bear it.I rather be the bad guy
and change you then you get hurt by people out there.
iloveyou..i really do*

i've known my weakness,negatives,bad points.
(thanks to my bro)
I'm trying hard to overcome it,
it's really not easy.

To people out there,
Change or not is up to you.
Life still goes on,
Live with it..

I still wanna thank my brothers,
really standing by me on tough times.
On my first official celebrations of christmas,
my best two gift is not an object or item..
They lend me money when i pok-kai,
they comfort me when i'm sad,
they guide me when i'm off-course,
they save me when i'm danger,
they let me know what is the real meaning of
BROTHER!

My 2nd best present,
my love,
my dear,
my heart,
my soul,
my sunshine,
My baby girl Jessica..
God brought her into my life earlier this year.
She impacted,changed, and brought me into
my new life.
Her love so strong,
her care so gentle,
her smile so sweet,
her heart so pure,
her touch so soft,
her in my life is the best present as well.

Christmas is a season of giving,
They gave their love & trust to me,
My best presents...

Sweetie,change or not..
My love for you will not Change..
iloveyou

用我一身幸福，换取你的悲伤。我愿意...

2008-10-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hahas.. Havent really got a good start on phone
with baby just now.
Can tell that she aint in a very good mood but,
hahas i'm trying my best to surpress mine as well.

I know that sometimes people say prayers dont have
to be declared openly,
that's why there is something called testimonials existed.

Since the thing i'm gonna share now cant be said during
the sharing of testimonials,
i guess i'll say it here instead.

Do you know baby,i've been praying alot for you (=
Mostly is on your stress & studies,
guess wad..
God answered my prayer.
In this last 100m before O's ,
sending you people that chiong studies with you,
teach & guides,
relieve stresses etc.
Hahas and jugding from your testimonials and conclusion,
i feel that you've definitely harvested something fruitful
in terms of your studies and leisure life (=
So i wanna thank God,
pouring his mercy on me answering my prayers,
for pouring his blessing over my baby Jessica..
Amen.

Though all in all i do learn something,
In this life is fair!
As much good things as you'll get,
as much bad things as you'll get too.
Though my prayer was answered,
though i was over the moon for her & myself,
But some sacrifices are just worth it (=
For eg.
You've got now,
mates whom chiong studies with you,
helps you alot,
and i do feel very happy for you!
It's just that the bad thing will be that
i'm gonna have to stop thinking otherwise.
Hahas well,
I guess that's all about it bahs..
Other then that,
Brudders for Life,
Love my sweetie Always..

Blocked+Banished+Betrayed = Bodoh???

2008-10-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

Only Know i want to post.
But thn forget it ..
I've got no mood to post..
Thanks for viewing my blog,
takecare people..

Getting Ready For The Worst.

2008-10-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

Anticipating is a skill that keeps people alive.
Professionals fighters anticipate and counters their
opponent next attack.
Basketball pro's anticipate what's their next formation.
Strategists anticipate what's going to happen after
every move.
So well can say anticipating is a human instinct,
so far had proven to kept human alive.
But why am i saying all this out a sudden??
We'll never know wad's going to happen next,
all we can do is anticipate,predict,etc...
So,cherish!
As for me,i'm already getting ready for the worst
that'll happen to me..
Have you guys??

Well... Other than that,
篮球火！！
Hahas, great Drama.
Watch till episode 9,it's not bad.

Aniways,to my dear baby..
加油!我支持你!
也会...
这样傻傻的爱着你 :D

Things are just not getting better =)

2008-09-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hahas,
Things just weren't looking bright ahead.
*God,Shine me your light as see me through this Lord.!Amen*

Hear the song??Queen of my heart.
Sang it infront of my girl today.
Why?? why out of a sudden..
Baby did you catch the Que??
Let me highlight to you which part,

"So how do i say,
do i say goodbye..
We both have our dreams,
We both wanna fly."

During this period of your O'lvls
intensive..
I must say it does affect our relationship.
So again i'm cutting detailed points,
and this is the conclusion..

If you could go back to 28th Feb 2008,
Would you accept me if you know this
is how it'll be??
Would you still accept me if you know
you could do so much better in
your studies now if you hadn't accept me??

Right now,
we're both still 17-16.
You've got dreams and expections to fufill.
It's seems like never-ending and tough..
Baby it hurts me everyday,
it was never the temper you threw,
it was never your attitude,
it was never never anything you did
to me that hurts me but
it's the reason why you're doing all this..
Sometimes i just couldn't help but ask
myself.. "am i the cause..."

Our distance physically may be far but
my dear..
i don't want us to be far away
heart-to-heart.

Although i may be a sotong quite a times but,
i remember this and i meant it :

"No matter what,i just want the Best for you.
Whether i'm your boyfriend or not,
it's just a title.
As long as you're happy and
i'll be too "

Baby it was at the carpark when i
said this to you..
=)

I'll always be around when you need me,
Love you girl...

Guess i'm gonna end this..
Anyways i cant sleep either,
read my blog le come tagg uhs!
tagg le come talk to me on MSN.
kiss you gdnite bloggy.
x33

Reality = Boundaries

2008-09-24T01:45:00.000+08:00

In this world,
People wants Certificates,
people wants Cars,
People wants House,
People wants Money,
People wants to be Regconized!

Hahas Who dont want it??
But we living in this ...
World of Reality Dont realize
for we have already gotten use
and just took it as it is.
How many actually knows reality
is a curse!
Instead of going to the moon,
reality binds you down to Earth.
Instead of Flying in the skies,
Reality TEARS down those wings of
courage...
All i can say is my friends,
Dont live in Reality,
For being this way you're just
Surviving on Earth from the day you're
born to the day you die.
Live a life of no regrets,
LIVE in this world!!
NOT SURVIVE!

Well quite alot things had been
happening lately it's just that
my life is finally looking like
it's upside down...

i miss you girl...
say "iloveyou"
say "youmissme"

Remember i told you before baby??
Best part of Love,
is to Love...
The Happier you are,
the happier i am..
The sadder you are,
the sadder i'll...

i've no intention of leaving but only
to Stand by you always!

Trying Hard To Bring You Smiles.

2008-09-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

For all i know,
Baby havent been visiting my blog much.
Well cant blame,
it's like almost a dead blog now.
Somewhat become like an alternative to
show my feelings through words.

Now is in the afternoon. 3.20pm
Earlier had a misunderstanding with my
darling then later on become quite bad.
I know she's pissed,she's moody,
she's angry,she's sad.
All kinds of feelings as juggling in
her except happy.

*Oh God,
Have you been listening to my prayers?
or my prayers didnt manage to reach you..

Baby,
Just wanna let you know if you've come
to visit.
Take note that this background,
is dedicated for you..
I know i hadnt been the same,
For i'm trying to become a man.
And baby dont worry,
i'll be praying for you like i always did.
Loving you like never before.

I've always been much more patience
and my tolerance were much higher in
the past..
I do understand it's a very stressful period
for you and i'm sorry not treating you well.
Even though we may have quarrels,
tiff,misunderstanding.etc.
No matter what you're still my baby
and i'll always stand by you [:

Now my family is breaking up,
financially much more Unstable,
Due date on my cash problems,
So many thigns are haunting me
every sec i'm breathing right now.

Baby i'm sorry but i do have my reasons..

Words Kills.

2008-09-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

People don't realize how much hurt every single word they say
to the other party.
So i'm not really gonna say anything bad about anyone.
Just sharing things that happened as General.

So...
Blog *Updated.
Blogskin Changed cause this Tiger Cub is so cute!!
Hmmmm...Just had a minor tiff with my darling baby,
Was feeling heavy-hearted as though i can sink straight
to Hell.
Then i don't know why,
i just tell myself to pray??
People always says : "it helps!"
You won't know until you tried it isn't it??
As soon as i dedicated my time into Prayers,
i felt lightened immediately,
was feeling so much more comfortable,
worse thing is...
i think i'm Addicted to it!

Well aniways my baby's now had calm down and so had i.
Wished her off to bed since she got school tomorrow,
Then i shall stay up all the way with 2nd Bro to Chiong studies.

Hahas Well,
Earlier on Today when down to Batok to meet my Buddy!
All of us (we 4 bros & Jess[baby] )when down to chat with her
and catch up.
Sadly we were "Jio Meng" . Or somewhat like challenged bahs,
Hahas worse part is that Guy uses "Stare-Stare" as a reason
to come find trouble with us.
Well he sure is childish & arrogant & ignorant.
I also don't wanna let loose details regarding it since it's
already "settled".
All i can do is to wish him best of Luck. ((:

Other then that,
Today is rather a tiring day and let's hope i will do well fer my
Exams.
Gambateh!! Roar!!

i've returned to my blog ...

2008-09-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

ya knw...
actually there's alot of things in my mind i wanna write,
but my brain juz hurts lik shit nw (:

hahas life's been normal (not until recently)
things lik i've accepted Jesus Christ into
my life.
things like participated Outreach event of CHC.

Well here's the thing tht juz happened recently..
the beggining of the story is tht my brother owes smeone 300m(mesos)
according to my father discussion with tht smeone,
i'm suppose to "clean my bro's ass".
Now tht responsibility of 300m mesos is on me.
i've gt 1month time to get tht mesos..
i knw i could never do it on my own...
i've tried asking help from my sworn bro,
thy've contributed,thy slogged thier life for me.
thn i've gt nobody else to turn to animore,
so i let down my pride i approached my girl for help.
in the middle things were rather smooth verbally,
estimated to hav 300m no sweat.
things ends up today :
i've got a good scolding from baby.
(baby : i said u condemn me,nt ur phnecalls. )
in between u wanted me to let u help,
i'm glad and grateful.
u told me to trust ue..
i did..
so i did nothing.
(baby : it's true,i fuckcare the whole mesos thing)
i knw u've slogged ur life for me.
...
i'll cut my feelings away for tht would be too long and i'm going crazy
...
the fact is,
yes i heckcared bout mesos thingy,
i nv gave a damn to save up for the mesos thing,
i nv bothered much aboutit..

it really hurts me when ue dont knw tht i rather have those money spend
on you thn returning tht debt..
where all my money gone???

i'll tell ue where,
on the smile of ur face...

i really wanna cry my heart out,
i knw wad i did was wrong...
so i've nv argued back.

i wont regret the choice i've made even this happened..
a smile on your face is worth it all...

baby i'm sorry i failed as a boyfriend..
nights..

Kns..so long no update.

2008-08-01T13:06:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...okay requested update from my darling baby =)
hahas so long nv update luh aso dont knw wad to write.

Well i'm updating this blog at Mr.Alex house,
LoL.

Wad can i say ??
Recently things had been happening,
me & baby still fine,
of coz she's still as sweet as always.
Hmmm...
Hanging out with cell groups member more nw,
things and stuffs lik services,cells meeting and fellowships.

Other then tht...
OH yea!
i just placed a new earstick bak into my ear,
hahas miracle sia so long le still no close but,
1st day put super thin earstick thn today borrow enlarger from
Alex then stuff it up my ear hole..
Now it's swelling but i'm waiting fer it to heal b4 i take out =)

for nw..
I Love My baby Always!
Hahas tkcares and cya all soon~

Kns..so long no update.

2008-08-01T13:06:00.000+08:00

A little Something to say (:

2008-06-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hahas.
Yar i know..
Me & Baby had quite alot
of misunderstnding .
it's not good.(OF COZ NOT!)
But Things Had been cleared
out after Jiejie Stepped in.
Poured our hearts out & all...
Do felt A LITTLE better,
coz my problem was a weird one.
My problem was:
"Over-Cared" .
At first minute,i thought to myself,
is it bullshit???
within that one minute i forced up
almost all my brain serum
to think on this.
Hahas..
True.
Just tht i never thought it would be..
Over-caring that is..

ALl the while i didnt know..
I'm killing my Brothers & frens,
Suffocated darling baby..
Made everyone feel so fucked..
including myself.
hahas morale of the story,
Dont act HERO.
Or you'll just be ZERO.
I've tried to be somebody i can
never be.
In the process i've placed my
relationship on jeopardy.
I've learnt and nt to do it animore.
But baby i just wanna tell you i
really only mean well for you..
and i knw u understnd tht (:

I'm not gonna tied ue down
like how u were treated in the past.
Never!

It's Time To Soar..Dont Tie Her Down. Let Her Spread Those Majestic Wings And Fly Towards A Better Tomorow~

Tht's wad i'm gonna tell myself everyday (:
Always Love,
BABY!!

This is SOOoo Chaotic..

2008-06-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

Baby i understnd,
i know you dont want me to follow you,
is because you scared i pangsei
my other frens and brothers.
Because some were complaining
tht u're taking me fer urself,
and left no time of me for them.
Well baby,
You dont have to worry about that.

If you're a friend or brother to anione,
see this.

Wad makes a friend or brother outstanding
from the sea of humans/people.??
is the UNDERSTANDING,TRUST,LOVE.
These are wad tht makes em' outstanding.
You can say:
"oh,i trust you ah,understnd ah,love you ah."
How many of you can really say this
from the bottom of your heart??
truthfully and sincerely.
There will be little.
UNDERSTANDING:
Understands him,his doing,his feelings.etc.
Understand why he does certain things & y not.
Understand wad are his priorities in life.
And so MANY other more things to understad.
TRUST:
Trust his way of doing.
Trust that he will not backstab,
will not cheat,
will not leak ur secrets,
will not harm you.
And so MUCH more!
LOVE:
...
How many of you really Loves ur
brothers and frens.
The simplest of Love i can define is that:
"You just wants your Love ones to be happy,
no matter wad sacrifice,wad price to pay."
Think about it people (:

Why didnt i say anythin about Gf??
Very simple.
She pushed me to my friends today.
Initially i was sad,
I think & think...y??
Why did you push me away to my frens??
Thn i heard my answer.
"I dont want him becoz of me lose his frens"
Some ppl may say..
"Excuse"
or
"chey.."
But i tell you people, these is not chey or bullshits!
She said to me once.
"you're my greatest joy,how could i wish you away."
She was tearing during that point of time.
And i knw,i knw..
From that point of time i couldnt leave her.
i dont wana leave her.
But still,
i balanced out my time fer baby and frens.
If my frens and brother are gonna go around saying:
"MK got galfren dont want fren/brother liaos,always
spent time with her gal oni.."Haha let me tell you this..
"you're not fit to be my brother/fren"
Even my galfren,can juz endure her pain,all
the hardships,all the emotions,
and just let me go to you guys..
My frens and brother,
asked urself..
would u be like her & had done the same?
I NEVER doubted my baby of her love.
BUT i doubt my brother/frens,
For understanding.
I hope you guys can tell me one day,
that you all understand whu am i
and accepts me of my doing.

Darling dont do that animore ok??
my time is well-planned.
And i'm sure things will workout (:
Just dont "throw" me to my frens juz lik dat
animore ok??
at least if u wan to, tell me 1st can??:P

So that's all i've got to say.
Loves my Baby!
Loves my brudders (:
Tkecares ppl~

Sometimes i Should have Shut up...

2008-05-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

self-reflect
self-reflect
self-reflect
self-reflect
self-reflect
self-reflect
self-reflect
...
This is the conclusion:
...
I've always thought :
"Yes i'm close to perfect!"
perfect to???
Being a good friend,
being a good son,
Most importantly being a
near-to-perfect boyfriend (:
But i was wrong.

My baby never wanted me to
be a near-to-perfect,
i chose to be one myself.
She gave me her everything,
everything except for bad things.
She only gives me all the best (:
So in return i wanna be someone,
someone special to her.
Someone whom she can rely on,
whom she can trust on,
rest on,
love on
and believe on..
But instead of closer to being
someone SPECIAL i became someone
SUCKY.

i've nothing to complaint,
but everything to be happy about.
i've could have never ask for anything else.
If i could re-live any day again,
i would choose 28/02/2008.
if i could re-choose a galfren,
i would still choose you.
if i'm only left with one last breath,
i'm gonna keep it for you,
to say "i love you" .
I never find dying for anione so meaningful
except for you.
I'm happy my mind's all about you everyday,
as joey says:
"it's always jess,jess,jess,jess..."
hahas, it's always you baby (:
Never regretted since the day i started wit you,
if it does end i will never ever regret (:

You're More than Just You (:
Believe in yourself,
Never limit yourself.
I'm sorry i cant be a resting place for you.
But i'm always here if you need me (:
I Love you like nothing else on this Earth.
Now i can sefely say...
I dont expect anything from you..
Not animore..
Do as you will (:

Sorry it took me this long to realize
wad was written in ur blog.
Dont worry about me anymore.
I'm grown up le.
If you need solitude,
just tell me alrite baby? (:
I wont grow around EMO and
think so much animore (:
I'm grown up...
And it's time i grow up.

-your undying care & love runs deep in my heart-

Things are hooking up.

2008-05-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

If anyone reading sees my darling
as a,
"bad" girl.
let tell you..

!!YOU'RE WRONG!!

The loving touches she's given me,
SHE SAYANG-ed MY HEART TODAY!!
i suddenly feel so much lighter.
she's my only baby...
i dont wish to lose her...

sobs*

Aniways things are starting to get better,
in terms of me & her.
The rest are still as fustrating as ever.
Rahhhhhh~!!!!!!!

i hope after tonite's sleep will be better (:

Love lik Heaven,Hurts lik Hell

2008-05-30T16:14:00.000+08:00

Seriously speaking,
If i could have fallen asleep,
i would have just done so.
I'm totally moodless and feeling
literally,
"heartless"
But thinking back i'm so sure,
tht i've gt a heart.
why???
Coz it has been weighing for lik,
few 100 tons for half of today.
I can hardly feel myself breathing,
my chest is so heavy and tight that
i feel lik juz jumping dwn from
anyplace would be a better feeling.
Unexplainable Pain,
it's really really painful.

On one hand,
My baby...
Am i really such a person to you??
No sense of urgency,
No sense of time,
No Respect to even those tht had passed on??
Am i lik that??
It's been very painful all along...
i dont care,
i tahan...
Yes i'm a GUY,
Insensitive,
Always Late,
Over-playful,
etc etc.
There was so many times i wanna
breakdown and cry..
i cant..
When i always think back about
you,
i remembered..
How ur ex treated ue..
How thy made ue so upset..
How thy rob ue of ur joy..
How thy betray ur trust..
How thy hurt ue lik hell..
& i'll always rmb my promise
and tell myself,
i'm not gonna be lik them.
i'm gonna make you happy,
i'm gonna let u trust once more,
i'm gonna love you lik heaven.
Sometimes even you did things lik,
kup phne,
talk to me in aggressive manner,
shunt me a cold shoulder,
i didnt really lik em..
in fact i hate em..
the reason i nv said a word was becoz,
i wanna proof to you,
not all guys are the same.
i wanna proof to you,
i really love you lik nobody's buisness..
i really do...
The fact tht i'm writing all these
down are not for sympathys,
not for forgiveness,
not for pride nor glory.
i write it down is becoz i want YOU,
to know i really do love you.

Yes,the most hurtful of hurts cmes frm you.
(and u always hurt me by accident)
But the best of the loves cmes frm you too!

fer nw i guessed tht's most of the thing,
dont wanna slp 1st...
wait fer Darling call see if she wants me
pei her to jurong.

i hope darling will feel better after a slp.

-Failing as ever,the Failure,MK.-

Shooting Star That You Can Safely Say Your's (:

2008-05-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

Let's kick off today by...
Happy 3rd Month BABY!!

Days has been flying pass really quickly,
Been through lots of emotions for the past
3 months.
High tides & Low tides as well.
We've teared Together,
And had been enjoying fun & laughters
Together.
Time had been hard on us,
Pockets Bombed,
Problems sprouting out from nowhre
and growing real quick lik nobody's
buisness.
But we've stood through together,
And here we are still alive today =x

On this special day,
i would like to say..
I'm proud of my baby ,
for her intensive care for me,
her undying love for me,
her warmth tht touches my heart,
her thoughts & sacrifices made..
Just for me.
And i wanna say tht,
Thnxs baby,
i appreciate your love,
and i will cherish you (:

Blogskin was re-themed,
For you Baby. (:
I'm not just your shooting star
on special days.
I'm a shooting star where
will be there whn u call,
always fly pass to tke away those
tears,
to cheer you up,
...
i'm a shooting star in which ue can
safely call "yours".
...
I love you baby!!

Today's been sought of great!!
Darling Suprised bout the necklace!
Yay!!
And a lovely rose from me to her :P
Was supposed to go woodlands town garden,
but the weather wasnt vry freny so..
Forced to think of smehting else.
Aniways we came up with idea of
Renting Movies and buy sme snacks and drink
up to my house and enjoy!
It came out great of coz,
can hugg my beloved ddear while watching a
great movie "Storm the Yard".
Hahas we did enjoyed the movie and all,
Hopefully tomorow would be Nice too!
Oh yar...
Did i mentioned i did the honour of
wearing the necklace for her in the middle
of the road and rain !!
Romantic level i dont think it did
reached the expected level,
maybe i shld improve on tht.
haiz..
But i gotta say,
THe necklace looked great on her!

Other thn that.
here are some of the future plans,
-fitness training intensive.
-tkd self training.
-settle out any unsettled scores.
-settle out $$$ problems.

Well...
I guessed tht's all about it.
Update tmr for sure XP
cya guys!!

Revival of Blog (: with opening regarding blogskin

2008-05-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,
yea i knw my blog had been dead fer quite awhile but worry not,
Here's smething fresh (:

1stly,if u have been an active blog reader of mine,
you would probably have notice tht i've actually changed my skin.
And i change them very often (:

For now my skin had been newly updated*
This guy over here,
Uchiha Itachi.
From the Anime "Naruto" if u did watch,
you will knw tht he's a "bad-guy" and very unpredictable,strong guy.
And LOTS of Naruto Fans are totally crazy over him.(girls tht is)
Well i'm a guy, thn y did i use him on my blog?!
simple. coz i respect him.
For crazy chaser of Naruto you will know tht he is actually FORCED,
to be bad guy.
And the fact tht at a point in which he was dying he still thinks of he's
younger brother,
Uchiha Sasuke.
Who only seeks revenge on Itachi,his brother.
The background story was complicating.
But my point here is tht,
I'm really trying hard to be lik him.
To my younger brother,
and to my 3 other blood brothers.
Just hope tht thy'll understnd (:

Aniways Lots of things had been happening,
stressing,loving,tiring and definitely intresting!

Between my brotherhood,
my younger brother is still not as understnding as ever..
well now he's trying to jio a gal but of coz,
definitely wishing fer his success and hopefully,
the gal will make him a mature young man.

Thn move on to my blood bro's eldest,
Well let's just put it tht he's been fooling around,
can see he WAS enjoying.
But now he's sought of in deep shiit.
Everyone else is trying really hard to help him though.
Just hopes tht he pulls through this and stop
he's childishness.
And he got himself a galfren!!
Grattz! (:
Better last long..

Well,2nd bro.
Stucked in the middle like me.
Somehw the case where the eldest was in,
he's in the middle of it.(die lor)
and so am i...
hope things been goin well between him and Lyn.
Last Long ohs (: stay sweet !

4th bro...
Wah this one jialat...
Mindset is of totally primary school.
childish thoughts,uncontrollable temper.
BUT,
of coz u're not forgotten and looked down on.
Everyone regconize you,
everyone remembers you.
Stop having childish thoughts like :
"Destiny cant be changed"
Put it this way,
A guy takes a parang and runs after you,
of coz you run!!
By doing tht it changes ur so called destiny to die.
i knw u'll say tht's bullshit.
iIf you stnd there,
tht's it u're dead.
isnt it???
Same goes for ur life,
People say :
"if your time is up , you'll die means you'll die."
But for you now,
You haven even reach tht time,
but you're WAITING for that time.
I wish for all the best in your life,
and definitely wish tht your princess will come soon.
forget to mention ur good point is that,
you've meant well for everything u say.
just use your words well and things are gonna be fine (:
"ni de hao yi wo xing ling le"

Overall is till wishes for my brotherhood to Last with wider smiles!

Hahs,
Now blogging on my Darling,Ddear,Baby,Honey,Dear,Beautiful,Beloved. (:
In between such a long time never blog,
definitely there's misunderstnding and stresses along this period.
Cant really remember those bad things tht happens,
Mostly are small matters like,
stressing over camp,
over job,
over her exams.etc.
Just simple stuffs lik tht (:
But we're both of extremely sensitive kinda ppl,
So...
Minors can easily becme a Major problem.
it's been a really stressing period for her.
She's got her O's,
got her sisters' to look after,
got her gan-family,
defintiely her own probs and all,
BUT..she will ALWAYS tke out time for me.
(except smetimes boh bian)
So on today's blog gonna Thxs her loads!
Gotta cheers honey!!
worry not, i'll always be here to tickle you!!
And Ddear,
i do appreciate of wad u hav done,sacrificed and given up for me.
thanks baby!! x333 MUACKS!! Loves you !!Looking forward to 28th !!!!!!!
Rawr~

Moving on to the Greatest stress i'm having now,
to choose between being a christian or buddhist.
Actually i aso cant say much.
Let's juz say that it's unbelievable,
or i'm juz thinkin too much.
Been asking myself recently,
Wad is the answer tht i need,
wad is it.??
i constantly ask myself of this question.
And this is the "unbelievable" or "think too much".
i will suddenly hear the singing of this phrase outta knw where,
"Jesus is the answer,for the world today."
"Above him there's no others,Jesus is the way."
Chua tio lei !!
Everytime outta nowhere de !!

well,other thn this,
i find myself gettin along well with jeannie and lot.
of feeling more comfortable goin to church.
THings lik dat.
Haiz...
Well i guess tht's all about it. (:

will blog soon (:
Most prob would be dead again i tink (;

Friday 9th May 08 East Coast.

2008-05-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

[Requested post] by:Darling.

Friday Was The Day Of Fun For:
Joey,CHeeHwee,Clara,Ddear Jessica Espcially.
We went to East Coast after Ddear Went for her "Tui Na".
Thn We all Head Dwn to East Coast Together (:

Once we reach there We Rent Bike ^^
4 bikes,5 persons (:
1st time taking Ddear for a ride on a bicycle!!.
She Praised My skill !! Compared to smebody's ...
Yea Aniways she totally Enjoyed Herself Tht Day.

Considering She Threw Smething (burden),
Into The Sea.Leaving it behind forever.
Plus , Seeing her Riding a Bike lik she nv ride b4...
feel really happy for her.
Finally this little canary Has Freed from
a Bastard's Cluthes...
Into Freedom..

To Hell of ur Past,
TOwards Heaven is ur future.
stay cheerful my darling!!
I still remembered i promise you,
we'll enjoy your new freedom together !
with me helping you fufill (:
I love you honey!!

Hmmm...Few picts was taken On tht day.
Aniways Here it is.

So That's Abt it.
Nothin Bout Chee & Joey Coz thy dont want Co-operate in Pictures :P
Next time thn (:
ByeBye~!!

Today's Mother's Day!!

2008-05-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Let's start off by today.
Today is MOTHER'S DAY!!
May All Mothers WANSUI!!
MY OWN MOTHER WANSUI³!!!

Today's morning was in CHC with Dear.
Touching Moments of hw sme Mother's Hav Impact & Touched
thier Dear children's life.

Of coz i Do love my mum!!
But Our family has gt no tradition of saying em' Out.
So well... I went home and did greet her With a
Happy Mother's Day wishing (:
Too budget nowadays To even gt smething for my Mum.
Aniways still,
Spent My Afternoon With Darling Too.
Had Lunch together in MAC.
Hahas she quite happy coz she hasnt lay her hands on
Fast food fer a month le.

Aniways Today at Church Me & Darling...well..
Let's Just put it,We got Shot.
"Couples That Prays Together,Stays Together"
I'll Leave that to YOU readers to think abt it coz
i'm done fredding over it luh...
hmmmm...stress stress...

Well...
My Brother "Ming Hui" .
Didnt even bother to eat dinner together with my Mum Today!!
MOTHER's DAY!!
And his Reason was..
"I Need To Chiong Maple Lahs!!"
Great..Fine..Nthn to say.
Thn Later On wan go out.
Wan tke money frm my mother and father.
Thy dont give, THn my bro scold scold scold..
Scold until they give him de money liaos...
Thn ran off..

Thxs ah Younger Brother, U really let Mum Enjoy her Day yar (:

Aniways ,
Welcoming 3 Brothers into my life.
: Joey,Chee Hwee, Munkit.
We Are No longer Best Of frens...
Now We are Brothers!
Blood Brothers!!
May Our BrotherHood Last.
CHEERS!!

Swae THings That Happen Recently:
*Constant Quarrels With Brothers & Darling.
*Financial Crisis.(self & family)
*Bike Got Stolen.
*Got Chased Money By Ah Long (Chee Hwee)
So Far that's all bahs...

If i rmb i'll Update.
Of coz there's Lots of Other Events Happened since i last updated.
My Fingers Are Strssed up and definitely Feeling Empty up in dhe head.
As in No inspirations to blog.
Well Of coz nt totally empty coz ddear's constantly in my mind! (:

Gonna Do smething abt myself,myself,& Myself.

I hope i can Let her smile from her heart once again..
Let her Sees it...With her Heart <3
Loves Ddear!! x333

Touched...Trapped...Tearing...

2008-05-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

Today i went to City Harvest Church (:
Being there just dont seem so awkward animore,
Been learning alot from there,
Made new friends in this process ^^
People were really friendly to me,
Great Thxs to them!!

Aniways i got a feeling that..
"Somebody" is hinting me..
Showing me signs,happenings,
and all..
Just telling me y'knw,
asking me into His family.
And i got "Something" ,more lik "helper",
Telling me smebody has been praying really hard for me ohs!!
Who else will pray for me everyday?
who else will shed tears just for me every day?
I'm so lucky to have a girlfren lik you (:
Couldn't hav been any better.
Thank You Dear!! x333

Recently having thoughts of converting,
quite a serious decision to make...
Well...i'm gonna put it on hold.
It's nothing to really wreak my brain on actually...
When it's de right time the fruit will blossom.
Let's see how it goes luh...

Aniways i'm a buddhist...
Ya i knw...whu say cant convert??
i knw can..
Plus got motivating stories from Pastors and Mentors
from the church .
They told of their life,
Hw thy became a christian and all...
Plus Plus there were a number in church were
converted from buddhist.
Mainly my parents aso dun really allow me
to convert...
Stressing topic too...

Aniways things hasnt really been smooth...
Doubt it's either of us de fault...
I'm gonna stop this habit of taking all the blame to myself,
And i hope ddear can too.
"in a relationship NoOne's at faults. It's either none or BOTH"
We're growing to knw more about each other,
more loving definitely.
But,things werent goin on so smoothly partly is
me being Over-sensitive .
I think it's just becoz of this.
Give me time dear i'm sure i can change it (:
i'm sure u'll always be by my side.

"a broken relationship takes months to heal,suggested nt to go into relationship if not fully healed."

Maybe we did started of abit earlier,on shaky rocks,bad timing...
But my darling's holding on!
Even after 2 huge blows one after another...
For me,
She pushed to the limit...
For us...

So darling,
Thxs fer putting all ur trust,
all ur time,
all ur love on me.
I knw u still need more time,rest assured i'll be waiting for
as long as i can.
Even if miracles does nt happen,
i will make it happen...
Just for you Honey...
Just for you.

Brothers 4 Life,Blood Brothers.
GOnna becme Blood bro with my all time Best buddies!
Chee Hwee,Mun Kit,Joey.
Looking forward to that (:

Aniways as for myself,
I started a little training CLass for Tkd.
Members : Zuohao,Chee,Munkit

Than i'm gonna begin my intensive training for
*purely self defense purpose ONLY!
And of coz to be fit (:

And Darling will b busy with her studies...
It's O's this yr!!
Work Hard DARLING!!
MUACKS!!
*May my kisses be with You*

~END~

Twisted.

2008-04-26T03:54:00.000+08:00

Hehs...
Sometimes stories can be so twisted,
Emotions will run wild at times But,
As long the objective is met it doesnt really
so much bahs??

Yea...
Aniways Contents nt very nice to reveal.
well, i just dun like this kinda things.
Now are "you" are sure i can take care of ur
darling sister??
And darling ...No more le okay??

Aniways anithin tht happen later i totally gt no mood,
No Mood ...to go bak on tht topic.

Hehs...
As predicted,
Life wouldnt be always high up.
In an instant it can be down low..

Towards the end of the day things are turning out fine,
and i'm really glad it did. (:

Well...it's been a heavy EMO day fer me,
Dunt even wanna think abt wad i did was rite or wrng,
dun even wanna share it with readers tht dont knw wad happen.
Gonna bury this soon...

Aniways i'll update more whn de feel for the blog is bak.
Guess for nw i'll MIA fer Blog.
Stay Tune~

Heys honey,
Thxs fer Forgiving me.
I'll try nt to that again.
Love ya Honey ^^
kisses x33

*Doesn't Pay To Be Kind*

You Never Try , You'll Never Know...

2008-04-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

Yea i knw..
I'm weak,alot of things ppl can do i cant do.
Ppl can do leg splits whn thy were young,
but i cant.
But for this i really dunmind coz,
Once u're in a arena juz u & me,
just wait u'll see (:

But tht's nt wad really bothers me all the time.
i FAILED.
To giv wad is most important to a girl,
Especially to my Poor Girl,
i've never given her a sense of Security ever since...
28.02.2008.
SO wad if i'm a charmer??
SO wad if i'm forgiving,understnding & all??
So wad??
i cant give smeone i Love so much,
Something tht is really important to her.
To let her feel secure,
let her feel safe.
Y cant i...??

Well on the other hand i just ASKED,
Wilson to not do this animore coz i really dun like it.
If he doesnt listen or continues ...
Maybe hav to take action soon.

I've been thinking so much smwhw it leads to me asking myself,
"Am i de one tht brought this troubles unto you..."

Aniways Overall,
Gonna tke up Security Classes.
Gonna go for Intensive Training soon.
Lastly i'm gonna tke up my sword Once again...

*Did i Over-Love you ???*

Game-Less , Love-More

2008-04-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Here's a Post finally after such a long time :D
Trust me,This post is intresting...

Past few days darling and i had really Enjoyed ourself,
Of coz some problematics thingy did pop-out outta nowhere...
Well i guess things workout (:
Had Our times together pretty sweet,
Sharing the past of us,
growing more understanding to one another as time goes by.
Really happy to see her gettin cheerful as days goes by,
though Bad things do happen but still...
i'm still gonna stay by her side all dhe way!

<33 Darling x33

Most recent And Best Topic was TaeKwonDo training.
It's a real Long & Painful...
Got kicked on my "Birdy" with a HIGH RAISING,
WITHOUT guard >.<
Lucky it's still Functioning (:
Well at least i gave them some Painful ones too :P
Looking forward to better improve my skills,
Chiong ahs!!

Hehs,
2days since i touched Cabal.
Guess i'll try my best to stay away from it yar??
Game-Less , Love-More
i'm gonna give in more of my time to her,
Even if it's just tht 1 sec,
It's THAT important.

Will Love Darling,
Love Darling,
Loving Darling,

Other readers stay tuned For this kinda,
"BIRD Shocking" News (:
cya~

Shooting Star Has Landed.

2008-04-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

Hehs.
Things are starting to look up for everyone!
Tht's a gd thing (:
Sad to say still sme bloody spoilers arnd.
To Him i say : _|_ : i say to Him

Well This shooting star had been flying arnd in search
place to settle dwn.
Flying through Universe,Space & Time.
Well Wad do you knw?!
SHOOTING STAR LANDED!!!
where?!
Right at your heart baby girl...right at your heart.

Aniways,
Life's so far so good.
Chocolate Dreams everyday,
And of coz wit Ddear by my side Evryday!

It's more thn enough.
<333 I Love you. Jessica Tan Yan x333
kisses,
huggss,
misses,
Lovess,
Darling.

I Need To Change, i have to...

2008-04-15T09:24:00.000+08:00

Things you'll do for someone you love.
I didnt know my darling baby was in in Need of Me.
I Have to change.

Change that is,i am trying (:

Aniways past few days we've been quarelling and yea...
it isnt vry good.
Plus most of the quarrels are on small small topics.
After some soul-searching i couldn't help blaming myself,
I've been ill-tempered,
Becming Possesive and..
I actually made her felt pressured.
Yes i know darling ,it's not my fault,dont blame myself.
i'm juz writing this out as a reminder to myself (:

I'm Changing for Good (:
I'm Changing... For My Love :D

Have been thinking on wad to do,wad to change...
Yea i tink i've got it and now i'll slowly get into momentum.

And so yea...Now i'm in school doing this post.
Missed my darling ,
Not gonna see her for the whole of Today But AT LEAST!!

i can hear my darling baby's sweet voice :D

I HATE BEING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

It's This "over-sensitiveness" that helps me gt to you.
It's this "over-sensitiveness" that almost chased you away.

WHY CANT IT JUST GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tears Falls as the Shooting Stars Will...

2008-04-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

I know...i could nv say enough sry,
To cover wad i did.
I wont expect you to forgive me becoz i know,
It's me.
I thought i am,all along such a gd guy,
those tht are sensible,sweet or anithin
good tht i should be.
But now i know...
Wad a Bastard tht i've Just been.

On Tonight i broke a Promise i once made to myself.
That is:
"i am never going to drop another single tear
for my relationship anymore"
That was wad i said to myself when i broke up with Josephine.

I once promised myself for Jess,
I am never going to treat her badly.
I am never going to let her suffer animore.
I will not let the same thing to happen again.

Look wad i did.
I broke my promises,
i nv took care of her well enuf,
i've let her suffered,
i yelled at her.
Yes you're right,no point giving excuses.
But on tht point of time i really didnt want to hang up.
I really want to know how are you feeling and
i wanted to try and make it up to you...

But in the end y dear...
Among all the things...
why did you not tell me
you're sad,
you're dissapointed,
your feelings tht time and just hung up...

I can Hear things like,
"you know Jess's pretty dissapointed bout you?!"
after smedays or smetimes.
Why??...Why after so many times you promised you'll tell me,
And you still didnt??
And you just told me to ...tkecare eat & go slp...

i know now...i suxs.

(Posted b4 CallBack.)

A Night at East Coast & 1st half of 9th April.

2008-04-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

Alright,
B4 going to East Coast i fetch Ddear off school (:
Raining Cats & Dogs , chilling winds too.
(scared cold)
Waited fer Ddear with an umbrella,but it doesnt seem
to be much of a use aniways.
Hehez,Basically we played in the rain :P
It was fun!! hadn't really done so for a long time,
But now with darling arnd...Hiak Hiak!!
yar well we're totally wet ...
After tht we saw Rafiq,
Slacked wit him,
thn after tht went to borrrow PSP frm Hongkai.
After tht went hme to change,
Met up Ddear and sent her off for tuition (:
of coz along wit Joey too.
Thn after sent ddear off to tuition went to CWP.
hehs..sry guys i am LATE by...45mins?? :P

The Night at East Coast was vry nice,and tiring...
earlier part of the nite i kept thinking of Ddear,
keep wondering wad she's doing,whether she's alrite?,
whether she's lonely.
Cant help grabbing my phne closely to me.
sorry the wallpaper was too atractive =x
Aniways i called up Darling at 12.30 remind her to slp early,
Well i guess she was asleeeped (:

PLayed Cards for an hour plus or so,
ended pretty bored so we started telling ghost story.
It was really freaky becoz i gt 2 frens there,
whu knows how to "jump god" .Thy sensed "smething" was NEARBY.
Not only thy 2,all 5 of us...we all felt tht uneasiness.

Thn we decided to leave tht place and carry on to Mac,
suprisingly "smething" followed us to MAC!!
We are trying our best tht time nt to gt "excited" >.<
Thn after smetimes tht feeling eased.
intresting ehs~

Had Breakfast at MAC .
Really intresting & funny.
After tht we went off to the beach to watch the beautiful,
SUNRISE!!
took pictures throughout the whole Sunrise.
of coz this feeling of wishing you were there...
OHH!! 4gt to mention,the stars there are really beautiful too!
i'm sure there'll be a day where we'll see this TOGETHER (:

Thn later we took taxi home.
Now tht i'm home,
i'm tired,drained,wadeva u can tink of...
BUT!! nt hitting da' Beds!!

I'm gonna Hang on till my darling release frm skool
i'm gonna go fetch her.
(pictures will be uploaded ASAP.)

i guess tht's all abt it.
The other half of the day we'll see how (:
cya~ *yawns* @.@

Clara's House Visit

2008-04-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

Hehs!
Today go my Nu'er Clara de place,
CONDO WOR!!! Wakakakakakaz!!
At Bkt Batok,With Ddear,Zuohao.
SO total 4person ahs.
Had lots of activities today in her condo.

Had a hard time passing Her Grandmother,
coz i gt dyed fringe...KNS...
Well,still passed and went in the house and ate
ITALIA NOODLE!!(dont know how to spell)
Thn after eating went down to the pool for swimming...
More lik drowning & playing rather thn really swimming,
coz all dont know hw to...
Keep burping in the water >.<

Thn today thought Ddear dunwan care bout me,
keep looking to her side,
trying to make her ply,
thn she keeps lik duncare thn lik sianded...
LoL,thn i no choice go gay wit Zuohao luh...
But seriously i understnd u dunwan let nu'er AhMa know,
But aso no need duncare to even cme talk to me a little,
hardly even smile back... ):

Aniways Later hav go to toilet for Sauna!!
Kaoz..LvL1 heat i inside sweat until Sweat pool cme out...
Bt ddear say i gt less pimple,look nicer XP
thn i find tht i slimmed down :P
Played walls knocking in the sauna :D

Well after we all got changed ddear saw me EMO,
thn finally cme tok to me luh :)
Well aniways i'm juz glad to hav spent time with her.
i hope she enjoyed today :)

Ddear i'm always here for you,
wadeva troubles it maybe,
call me i'll be there.
MK everyday keeps Strss AWAY~~~

Class outing(2nd April) , TOday(3rd April)

2008-04-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

EL0801p
ICT yr 1.
Class Outing = BBQ
Turnout: Half a class.

Heeeeehz...Overall it's still Fun.
Nothing much really Happened down there except a fren of mine,
brought his girlfren along ended she flirting with another guy.
Of coz for tht our class decided to help him so we XiaLun wit
tht bastard.
other thn tht,
it was eating,drinking,joking and of coz,
relaxing...

sitting by the rocks,looking out towards tht vast Ocean,
breeze carrying away my troubles,bringing calmness back to me..

well...This is it.
Here :

Heeeez weeell tht's the end of my Class outing day (:

Today...Hmmmm...Let's start off with the bad things so Far.
As i'm speaking now THEY are still nagging.at whom?? ME.
Simply becoz of my Bro's prob...AGAIN!!
For 3 mnths..3 MONTHS!!
My bro attendance in skool is only 2 mnths...
see properly ok 2 MONTHS!!!
And whu get's scolding??? ME?!
as my father was scolding him half-way.
He scolds me for today coz my bro nv go skool(yes he skips again.)
one eg. :
"i call home so many times today!!never pick up!!Thn tht guy inside SLEEP UNTIL LIK PIG(me) !! ASO NEVER PICK UP!!ONI KNOW HOW EVERYDAY RUN OUT(me)!!DONT KNOW HW TO LOOK AFTER THT SMALL BROTHER!! YOU 2 ALL USELESS!! BIG ONE LIK THT(me)SMALL ONE ASO LIK DAT!!"
hehs...Thts it for now...at least..their still scolding and yelling away...
From the looks of it seems lik it's stopping soon.

Well here are some of the happy things tht happened today...
HERE!! :

Photos taken by: Liew Zhi Xiang
Hehs...Tht's all about it.
Really Misses our time together ddear...
Well...
Other thn scoldings and my Ddear.
Nothing else...
Tht's all.
Cao~

Heh...i cant sleep!!!

2008-04-02T01:54:00.000+08:00

Kaoz...jialat.
It's been lik centuries since i last felt so
,stress,confused,blur,desperate,pressure...wadeva it is.
This feeling...is really giving me hard time.

Gal,i've still gotta say 1st.
No matter wad,i'll hang on.
Be it wadeva Problems it's gonna be,
i will not give up.

I know wad i wanted all along ddear.
It's you gal...
it's you...
Other thn you i really dun wish to think about
other things no more,
which in the end i still did...

I've been so clear of this religion thing all along.
I'm a buddhist,and i'm gonna stick to it.
But i'm learning Christianity so far (:
Ddear u once told me,u juz wanted ur love ones to know...
This believe tht you're dedicating ur life to,
i know.
Even if tht's the case,even if i'm learning,i'm intrested,
i believe it's true and all...Doesnt mean i have to be a chritian rite?
i know you didnt force,but i want you to know...
Not being one Doesnt mean i dont understnd wad it's all abt.

I just dont wanna disapoint you...
i felt myself crushed under ur question,
y?? coz i really Love you so much tht i dont wanna
give a answer which will make u sad or disapointed.
Although we do not believe in the same religion,
But we believe in our Love for one another.
Being True,
At least,
I can Love you whole-heartedly,
w/o feeling guilty of anithin.
Juz purely Love.

It's just tht i really felt,
so full of stresses...
Tht's y i wanna write it out.
Sry dear...
Tht's so much i can think of...
i juz hope after a nights slp i would be better,
of coz plus a dream of you & me wld be Best (:
Right now i juz feel lik stabbing myself off to bed,
my darling,i know u'll understnd wad i mean,
but i still wanna say sorry coz i've yet again,
brought you nohting bt disapointment.
sorry...
"Loving you with all my Heart~"

The rest of the Day.

2008-04-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

A day for the fools...
yar u gt tht right,i fell fer the april fool trick.

"Hello you are MK rite?? Jess gt admitted to the hospital."
Wth...
Yea i believed.coz it's 2.4km run fer her.She's nt vry physically strong,
But she has this undying will tht wants to run...
Ddear,dun run 2.4 so chiong luh...Chiong to me still ok uh..

Well aniways,XingJuan told me this.She's in hospital,phne wit her,and dont know which Hsopital.

Kaoz.after hung up,i was so panicked!!
i asked Chee:
"hey can we find smeone directly on which hospital thy admitted?"
he said "no lar"
jialat jialat...
So i juz wanna go Tan Tock Seng ask 1st.thn later on to others.
As i was about to leave Mac. "and tell MK it's april fool"
COOL HUH?!!

Well ,so long as u're happy i dont mind (:
Happy aprils fool.

Thn later on meet up wit ddear at KFC,
meet up with other frens,

sorry ddear i dont mean to be moody de,
juz i really dont wan her to feeel left out and all.
Thn this family prob things aso.
But it's gonna be alright soon (:

Hmmm...missed my darling much today uh...

Darling WO AI NI~
x33333

wad a morning..

2008-04-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

Here's a post as promised to my ddear (:
The time now is 10.20am,
sorry darling i cant complete this post YET.
well...my brother nv go schol today,
KNS.
Thn still gt the cheek to tell me:
"today oni lar~!!,tmr sure go lar!!"
"today i no mood,"
"nvm,teacher say as long as gt MC can le.Now i go see Doct."

Thn my parents later call me and scold scold scold shout shout shout..
at whu??
at ME!!

wad my bro get??
"aiyo..u ok anot??"
cheebye..
Sibei Dulan..

Ddear i'll post again tonight ok?? sry
x33333
Wo Ai Ni. <333

1st Month Anniversery!!!

2008-03-29T01:06:00.000+08:00

Darling Thxs!!
Big thnk you for ur present sweetheart!!
Now i gt ur "hearts" :P

Well...hmmm...
Today i went a lil bit crazy making all the preperations for the cake after
i came bak home frm "morning run".
Hmmmm...overall the cake didnt came out as expected...
But thn...wad to do...
So i wrecked my brain for more ideas!!
hmmm...
eg.Tag,candles :P
It was a really budget one but i hope she doesnt mind...
invited chee along to help me out coz i wanna surprised by "blind folding" herwith my hand and tke her on a tour :P
Well, it came out alrite except tht,lighter spoil...candle werent lit.
welll....Goota live on.
Aniways i hope she likes de cake ..and i think she does (:

After eating a huge amount of cakes,bloateed,full,
AND I TOOK LOTS OF PICTS WIT MY DDEAR!!
Most of the shots were deleted due to my stiff face ...
And my "cannot smile" face...

Took a long time b4 we headed off to City Hall..aimed for Esplanade.
Had a long walk there,enjoyed ourself pretty much. really glad tht she's ahppy for today. afterall tht's all i asked for.

On this special Day our EZ-Link gt special Offers for us!!
We gt the same amount of cash in the card,THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE JOURNEY!!

Well....
Juz really misses you honey,
loving u ddear,
Hope u really enjoyed today alrite ^^
Promise you ur next mnth will be a smashing one ;)
<333 Xia0Jess x3333

cao~

The Morning of My 1Month Anniversery!!

2008-03-28T09:30:00.000+08:00

y'know...
I really ran...really ran the hell outta me...
Face it MK,this is the 3rd time you're late for her.
lucky your gal's a understnding one,
if not....you're long gone man...
WELL at least she did saw me on bus (:
She knows...i know...we know (:
Aniways...
...
...
I REALLY RAN LIKE NOBODY BUISNESS UH!!
ALMOST DASHED ACROSS THE ROAD W/O Knowing gt
a LORRY behind me.
Thn for greater speed,i ran w/o slipper.
~ouch~it's really painful...
My heels gt cuts,muscle cramps,
almost couldn't breathe coz my lungs are tight without stretching.
All tht,is worth it whn i thought i'm gonna see her to skool...
oh...so sad MK didnt make it.
i'm disappointed wit myself,couldnt surprise her in a
Special Day lik today...
Utterly disappointed...
I juz hope she's alrite,after making her lose some trust in me..
i really wish now i could do smething to prove to her,
prove to her tht,
i'm not lik any other guys.
I dont break my Promises.
I dont Flirt.
I dont Lose control of my Thoughts.
I dont come Late.
I dont wanna be just a guy for her,
i wanna be smeone special to her,
more thn juz a boyfren.

I wanna be the smeone she can always
Lean on,
Trust on,
Believe in,
Love on,

So...On this very Special Day of Ours,
i wish,
We can Last on 4ever more (:
Happy as ever,
Loving as ever,!!! YaY !!!
Also wishes others ,
irfan,
chee hwee,
munkit,
To Faster find their other half (:

So Tht's all for the morning,
Night de Night thn say XP
cao~

It's a really Beautiful day...

2008-03-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

Who says All Love Triangles Ends up Nasty??
Who Says True Love Doesnt Exist?!
WHO SAY!!!
LoL...

Well my point is...
Love Triangles have 2 different kinds.
1.3rd Party purposely Disturb
2.ALL 3 Loves each other.

sounds weird ah?? All 3 in love together??
it is possible,and "we've" experienced it...
Brotherly Love+Romantic Love+Siblings Love
=Love Triangle.
(newest Love formula) :D
Things were rather Long and ...a secret la ah y'know ;)
But all i know is...
Each of us ...
Been through Torments,Sufferings,Depressions and all...
Gettin ourselves Emo up...
Making ourself touching knives and Magics...
Been through Lots of tough times...
And this beautiful day finally came.

I've gt bak a Long "Lost" Brother,
I've gt Somebody...to love,to care,to concern about.
And i've got everything settled out.
I was so Dam Happy.
This Smile frm her...which seems to be misplaced,
Finds where it shld really belong...
Yes. On her Face, on her cute & sweet lil' Face.

Seeing her smile has always been the cause of the traingle,
and it is the triangle tht brought it back... thxs Triangle :P

other thn tht...well today...

ATE LOTS OF LOR MEE~!!!! SUFFERING UH.... ):

but still loves my sweet & cute lil' gal (:
Wo Ai Ni!!! x333333.

23th March 08 was totally Awesme!!

2008-03-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Alright Today is Easter and i went to City Harvest Church with my "aiai" !!!
Well...
Let's Start with the most important thing i learn in church today X)
Easter is a day where christians celebrates the re-birth of the living-god Jesus Christ??
True?? correct me if i'm wrng :P
So Ppl celebrate and learn one of the most Important Core Values of being a christian,
Tht is to Forgive.
One muz learn to Forgive one another , in order for others to Forgive you.
Think about it , it benefits EveryOne. X) sounds great?
Of coz it isnt so easy if nt thi world would in Peace isnt it?

After Church Went KBOX!! WoW a place i nv really wanted to go,
But it turned out a pretty Nice place!!
Had Lots of Fun with My ddear and frens ...
totally in love with her voice whn she sing!! so sweeeet~~
Though bad thing is i broke 1 of my own principal ...
Tht is to let a Gal treat me...Plus So expensive!! see her fork out money,
Really heartpain uhs ... ):
But still i feelt tht it's Totally Worth it coz her smiles was Heavenly X)

Actually was wanting to take NeoPrints but everybody was in Rush so...
*Phew~*
Just as i was sighing my relieve thn,
"my B'day i want u tke NeoPrint wit me!!"
WAH~~ ):
But think about it it's not so bad either XP
Totally love to tke picts with her !!
Afterall she's the 1st to make me touch the mike in KBOX!!

Aniways Today's Sweeet~
She's sweeet~
Wishin everyone Sweet Easter!

Brand New Look & Address!!!

2008-03-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hahas New BlogSkin Themed "Garfield"
Simply becoz i was nicked-named one and i find tht it's really cute too X)
Also used Garfied specially for smeone Who Misses Garfield almost everyday :P
So this Goes out to you~<3>
http://ibelieve-x.blogspot.com/ :P
Sounds familiar??? Wakakakakaz!!
Aniways Tht's all for my opening speeh.
Music i'll see wad i can do coz Ppl hav
different taste for music..dont wanna spoil ur mood reading my Blog yea? :)

End Of Speech,
TY~

..:: Long & Sweet ::..

2008-03-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Well i was on Msn chatting and writing up my latest post here.
If it doesnt sound right. Juz bear with it :)

Let's start by less importants topic tht's been happening.

CabalSEA online.

>>Xia0Keatz

>>LvL45

>>Force Shielder(hybrid)

currently Declared:
=(INACTIVE)=

Dun ask hw cme ...smethings are juz way more imprtant thn a mere game.
To this specially goes out to ZuoHao who went Crazy over CabalSEA.
He chased up my lvl...Gratz...Bt you're a noob coz u lack smething.
And Now still chionging as i'm typing...NEGLECTING "smebody"...

Will he ever learn??stay tune the next Episode to find out !!

Joey came to stay at my hse for 1 night. It's always standard,he cmes,
No Sleep. We'll be out in the wild !!
Aniway this was what happend frm 1st day nite to next day afternoon.

1.Had Dinner at 888 plaza wit Ddear, joey,Chee Hwee.(KFC)
Having lots of "Horny" talks there :P
2.Sent Ddear Home to Her LaLaland thn proceed bak to 630 for my 2nd round Dinner!!
3.Go Home Bomb toilet And we 3 Play Cabal turn by turn.
4.Midnite We Sneaked out to Wenjie's Hse play Board Game Risk.
5.Met up with Munkit.5 of us (munkit,joey,chee,me,and my bro) went to MAC
and Dapao food, Thy walk and Eat.....
6.Reach Wenjie there. Play Risk. Play halfway Police Come.
Complaints and Naggs.(He look liked he juz woken up,poor thing ... :P)
7.Walk home at around 4.30~5.30.
Reach at abt 6.30am.
8. Guess wad... CABAL!!! OMG!! cant blame thm..one cant ply much,one juz started,one comp spoil..

End up i oni slept 3 hrs...SO TIRED!!

Well,
Orchard was Fun.
Thxs fer tking me on a tour there. Never really explored Orchard road tht much.
Lucky You were there,if n i would've been Lost in The wild.
Hahas aniways tht day was totally BEST!
And the "Treasure hunt" was fun too!! really chaotic ehs?? :P
I'm sure we really had a great day out there.
Thank you,for that very special day (:
Tmr Will Be a Great Day!! i believe it will be (:

"I'm Here...Fade But Not Invisible"

Til Here i shall stop and Bring More "excitement" for you guys tmr.

Long Time No Post...

2008-03-14T09:36:00.000+08:00

Guess it has been a long long time since i've posted on my blog again...
I must say the life now is not at all healthy.
Steep uphills and downhills...worst thn the roller coaster tht go twisting around in the sky.

LoL Now i in classs posting this fcking post...
Yuks feeling dam suck...

Hmmmmm,smetimes i juz wonder wad people around me are thinking...
Haha i guess it's no fun after they tell me rite??
But my brain aint a Pentium 4 guys...you guys are giving me yo many things to guess...it's really stressing me up smetimes.
Indeed the greatest mystery is the human heart. (:

So far my days were sweet...really sweet...
Just really wish those bits & pieces of bitterness can just go away soon.
On the other hand i'm gonna try and change,
hmmm...just maybe...

Hw cme the shooting star doesnt swish pass animore??
Hw cme Garfield doesnt dance animore??
Hw cme Ah Gong is 1 foot in Casket??

Haha...tht's becoz i'm too stress obviously.
Being such sensitive me is good and bad.
i can be vry sensitive and understnd ppl more...
i can be vry difficult coz i'm so sensitive i bother abt every minor details things happen.
All those who think i'm such a good guy,
dont think tht way...i'll dissapoint really badly...

Well watched Step-up 2 with "smebody".
movie is nice,
she is nice,
everything was nice,
Sms and calls....uh-uh...i dun think so...'
well guess i couldnt say much aniways,
as long as u're happy with it i'm alright with anithin (:

Recently picked up a new game CabalSEA ..i must say...it's cool alright,
Though the recent happenings really made me into a zombie but i feel i can still ply on bahs.

Thy say whn two is deeply in love with each other,
the other half will feel it's opposite feeling...sharing the same feeling.
i wonder is it tht you're feeling this way and i am too or is it simply sme other virus tht is trying to destroy us...

aiya mai post liaos...
frm beginning till now half an hr teacher no cme...
heh...guess tht's so much i could say...

Afterall i'm the luckiest among 22.

-whn will the rain of joy cme?? whn will de cloud of love form??whn will the warmth of sun once again warm me up-

My "Sorries" Statement...

2008-02-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

OK...1st to start off with...

Let's start by all my Gan-Nieces'.
I'm sry i broke up your Ur Gan-mummy and Gan-Daddy.
Sorry i made you loose either one or both.

Thn 2ndly is irfan.
All i can say is sry coz basically there's nthn much we can talk about.

Lastly is Jess...
Endless sorry to your Endless problems...

Guess there's much else i can say or blog about...

Not every Sunday is Sunny...

2008-02-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

"Not everyday is Sunday"
Haha!! why not?
"Not every Sunday is Sunny"
Obviously it has not been a pretty Sunday for me so far...

It is this simple.
Shooting Stars brighten your dark sky a little,
cheers you up a little,enchants you a little and Set you free from all of your troubles just in that split seconds.
On the other hand,
Fairytales although hav sad endings smetimes,cruel smetimes and of coz emotional smetimes.
But fairytales is always full of beautiful endings,loving moments,touching moments,surprises you in every turn and the best part is it never ends...

I'm just a shooting star which distract you ...merely a ...star...
Go back to your fairytales where you belong (:

Once a trespasser , always a trespasser.
All i'll ever be is only a trespasser,
no more , no less
Just that...

3rd time i'm shot down and i'm out of token,
it's simply Game Over...

Friday.Really.Is.Day.All.Yawn.

2008-02-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

Aniways today is Friday and yuks...wad a day...
Woke up pretty early in the morning coz today morning got test.
Test on internet skills application smething like tht yar...
Obviously i didnt study at home or where-eva,even when i reach the class it's all Guns and Bombs(Counter-Strike)

LOL~the whole class was there and everybody plying the same shyt..
you shoot me i shoot you.."shiok".
Later teacher comes in we all kena headshot..
supposingly i thought i was goin to Fail my test but teacher say"it's an open book test"

HAHA~ITE LUH!! WHER GOT OPEN BOOK?!!
of coz there's 1 or 2 whom hav the txtbooks and thy used it.
For the rest of the class,wad do we do?? O.o
We are more advance luh...

Our teacher used to sent us all the summaries of our lesson.along with samples and "codes".
All we have to do is:
1.Open internet
2.Go hotmail
3.Find the mail
4.Copy & paste
And thn go home...since we complete the test,so we ended up goin home 1hr earlier.

Today was supposed to meet "smeone"...vry unfortunately she met up with some problems and smehow our meet was cancel.
Aniways i hope she did enjoy herself today ;) cheers~!

Today is just damn sick boring luhs...

"Do you ever recall
the day we first met?
...our first "hi"?

...The day
we becme friends?
well, i do...
and
will always remember
For that very day..
i knew...

i'd CHERISH YOU! :) "

Alright tht's it for today...
Cheers....*yawns...*

21st of Feb....Hmmmmm....

2008-02-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

Yet again... I post again...
yet again... You read again...
Not again??... Oh my "Tian"...

haha aniways today's quite a fun day coz i i can sleep late!!
My lesson today actually starts at 2pm ends at 4pm so i don't have to wake up dam early to go school :P
people go school we sleeping...BAD THING is...they go home we studying :(
And well,woke up at 11.45 around there...
Quickly go bath and wadeva shyts and ta~da ready for school...
Meet up with chee hwee at the station and went off.

On-time for lesson ,Off-time go...
the lesson only takes 1hr ...and tht's it...go home...
Wad de hell !! i go school nearing 1hr time and got here just for 1hr lesson?!
naturally nobody complains coz everyone is darn happy bout it ...including me :P
After tht never really went home...instead i knock up on "someone" !! WoHoooO~
It was fun all the way sia !! Misses those times >.< color="#ff6600">special occassion for "smeone".

FOOK "synthesis" never open shop today...KNN...
Thn i took bike all the way to Vista purchase wad i wanted...
Aniways my present for her was last minute done and it ain't really nice luh but..
just hopes she likes it...

You will be wondering..."wad's the special occassion??"
Let me wisen up your knowledge ppl...The last day of Chinese New Year is actually a chinese version of Valentine's Day :P
Hehez....So..just hope she likes it luh..

Cheers~

2days happenings(compounded)

2008-02-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

Alrite. can't really remember wad had happen for the past 2days .
All i can say is thy are just wad happen everyday,ups and downs.(sadly mostly all the downs)
hmmm...let's see...
on the 18th,it's just lik normal school days BUT !! only after Gaylo asked: "eh MK wnana go ride today?? At Bkt Batok,gt pro teach"

Somehow i really regretted agreeing to go along...
well...since i did,i took taxi there since i didn't know the way to ride frm Admiralty to Bkt.Batok.
I brought $19,and i'm left with $3 !!....shyt man...heart pain sia...
So i took the taxi all the way to West Mall.Meet up with Gaylo and of coz,
jealous of his bike...
Aniways,we slacked awhile and went off riding into a remote area where there is a skate park there.(more like BMX park...)
All the pro's down there whipping their stunts in the air,on the ground,totally gt me stunt...
Upon reaching there,things were not of wad i have in mind.
THEY weren't really frenly well of coz i'm noob,plus i dot really know them...
THEY were mostly NS mens except for sme still 18-19...
THEY didnt really teach me coz thy were all juz doin their own things and stuffs,plus i dont know them...
In the end i went home at 9...coz i was wondering "HOW?!" to get home...
With $3 left in my pocket there's totally no way i can get home by taxi w/o letting parents know( i sneaked)
So when everything seemed hopeless and all,sound of an angel came...*Riiiiiiiing~~!*
Here came a sms frm "someone" and she agreed to help me pay my fares when i reach there.
hahas great thxs to HER loh!!
Aniways i'm still very relunctant to take up her offer ....so i tried to find my way out of Bkt.Batok.
My 1st idea was to follow the track frm Bkt.Batok HAH! thn the track went into the tunnel !!
Thn i went round trying to find a way out...keep rolling rolling rolling...Lost the track...
So i went aimlessly until i reach MOD(ministry of defence).Thn i carry on till i reach "Salvation Army HQ" ...I'M SAFE!!!!!
I followed a bus route which i remembered will reach Causeway Point.
Long way sia...i cant explainto you.. wan you go try ride bahs :)

19th Feb...
Nthn much really happened today except lots of Talks of craps by lecturers and all.
Thn all the way till night gt TaeKwonDo wors...Dam tiring...
Aniways tht's all tht happened for 19th...nthn much .
Although tht special "smeone" today is really sad....So i made a promise to make her smile again...HOW?
I promised her shooting stars.
So i hope she wont be so sad animore and will feel more cheerful after tht :)
A poem created out of blue...
Out from my heart...

Sorrowful Shooting
Star.

I wish i could be a shooting star...

So that i could swish pass your teary eyes...

To Make your tears go away...

To make you believe...

To make you trust...

Even if it's just for this few seconds...

I'm willing to live and die just like that.

Though i only regret i have flew pass too late.

Sorrow is only all i have left...

By: MK

So now i would like to dedicate my current blog song for tht special "smeone".

Hopes she'll cheer up :)

cheers guys!

Another Day...another story...

2008-02-16T01:21:00.000+08:00

Sometimes thinking back you will find life is ever-changing.
From a nobody,nerd,freak or wadeva...In a blink of an eye you may be a somebody!!!
Ever since i'm with the tiger,i changed, physically as in...
Of coz my mentallity is still the same old childish and friendly me :P

Aniways things tht one dont say doesnt mean he dont Noe.
My "hiadi-kia" all steady ,i believe them.
Paikia doesnt mean bad ppl,dont know how to think and all...there are really rare diamonds still around :)

Hahs.i got my family,i gt my brothers, i gt friends!! BUT SOMETHING IS STILL MISSING!!
Haiz.............................................................................................................................................................

Aniways today after came back from school went KFC(admiralty) .My bro took my 3rd wife out and do stunt. Unfortunately my bike wheel gt busted pretty badly coz of his numerous attempts to do a bunny hop.
So nothing much really happened today luh.
Aniways later at night Wenjie held a meeting and boost our brain a little luh :)

"One Day i'll Become a Butterfly And Spread My Wings Of Pride & Glory , Just Wait And See."

Sorry For The Long Lost Update.

2008-02-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

Hahas,wad can i say??life is full of Ups & Downs yar??

Lotz of things happened and i've been too busy,emo,slack,lazy maybe smetimes even

Too fustrated to update.

School:

ITE life totally roxs.Till now i've really becme on good terms with ppl

in my class :)

Great ppl ,unique personalities,funny and gay-ish...

Spent most of the time gay-ing in class,plying PSP,sleeping,skipping lessons "Di Siao" teachers and all soughts of things luhs.

Aniways my Test coming luh !! LoL let's hope i pass :)

New:

Well,thnks to Jerome i'm now being attracted into BMX Stunts & Tricks.

Yea no doubt i'm still a noob but in no time i'm gonna fly with my Bike ;)

Aniway b4 i started there was trouble :"where do i get the money to buy the bike?!"

Thxs to my memoriies,i was able to think back hw many times i walked through the corridors of WenJie's house. He gt a pretty Wrecked up Haro...both wheels plus chain is hopeless.

REAL BIG thnxs to him,i saved $250 and spent $24 for my 2nd hand Haro ;)

Around of applause for my 3rd wife!! :

Ain't She a Beauty ;)

HOT!!:

YOU ppl tht view my blog will preview the 1st hand on me Learning How to do a Bunny Hop : )

Hahas. Haven't fell YET coz i've been plying safe . Hehez...

So here it is :

Hmmmm...Last update "Valentine's Day"

Really a [ valentines = VLT = Very Lonely Thursday ] No doubt bout tht...

Well,this pathethic me lived for 16 half yrs....

Only celebrates ONCE TRUE valentines...

Aniways Received smething really nice for my tummy!!

Stole "someone" roses ...

And...nthn much...

Zao liaos, bye.

2008-01-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

12th Of January...
David's B'day!!YaY!!
HooraY He Got Caked!!!!!!! WANSUI!!!
Hahas,it's a very nice to see him so energetic doing his 2.4km
in Sembawang Beach :P
Smoky,hasty,bt NOT smelly :)
Smells nice enough with sme chicken wings,marshmallows,Liqour,
APPLE and of coz sme sweet desserts!!

Wad a day for my younger bro too...got drunk and vomit...
*Tht is the oni part tht stinks*
Well,aniways everyone is quite tired whn it struck 3am.
almost 20 ppl stayed overnite and 16 of em is asleep??imagine 8 ppl in a
4-men tent and the rest all sleeping by the roadside!! Nice ehs.
Well i'm one of em tht slps at 4am by the roadside...
Lucky enuf to wake up in one piece...
Woke up at 6am++,dam tired and slpy. Heads home after tht.

Aniways later Part of the day i became a Full-Time Slacker lorhs...
Tht's it ppl...

No love life update today coz i'm too sad to mention.
No pictures coz too dark and my camera budget(no flash)

2008-01-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday...8th of Feb...2008...
Happy Birthday to my Dearest Mei!!!
Hahas she just hit her sweet 16 YaY!!

Her Birthday was smashing,everybodies hyper and fired up.
jumping around, blasting music ,great food but nt much of a drink though...

Got her a present:D&T folder!! (which she already had...)
But she appreciates it and dat's all it matters :)
Of coz there's the best part!!
Cakes!!
Cake was delicious,but extra tasty for our sweet Jessica!!wakakakakz!!!
She GOT "CAKED"!!

Others who got caked:
Wilson
Clara
Eric Kor
unfortunately...me...=.=
Of coz lastly wishes her all the best !!May all her wishes cme true :)

Noticed smething's wrng??
Let me tell u wad.It's MY HAIR!!!
No Longer KimMoh Liaos!! *sobs*
Black looks so nerd...
Aniways,Came home at around 11pm...
check my ITE application.
Confirm posted to Balestier ITE!!School life starting soon.
Man it's gonna be boring...End of Fun Days Back to Prison...haiz..

And Well...Love is complicating...
It's only Day 2 of my wait...When will it be 2 yrs later??
I hate to believe this :"loving smeone doesnt need 2 to be together."
Yes,it's true...but i simply can't take this feeling...
Sometime i wondered,will she accept me??
After 2 yrs...if her answer is gonna be a "No"
But at least...it's once upon "yes"...

2008-01-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

Holding Bak My emotions to giv you the latest update.

Yesterday,16th Jan 2008.
Went to Suntec Xchange Maple limited Edition Poster
With CheeHwee And Joey.
On the way met Hongyi and had a Great time chatting.
Thn later on when to my Brudder(Joey) de House.
Had a Little Convo With her. And Slacking most of the time.
So around 5pm~6pm,She was on the way home.
I finally Cant stand myself being so coward,i stood up,called her,and halt her in the middle of a Garden.
And so I finally asked the golden question...
Guess wad. If Miracle Happens,I'll Tell you...
So If i don't tell you now...You're smart enough to figure it out bahs...

Wad to do...Blame myself not having born with a glib tongue,
Not having a understnding mind and heart.Not having guts to even bring myself
to Show her how much i really wish to Have her by my side,
how much i really want to shower her with Love...
That much i can update you for now...

(original art by:ME)

2008-01-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

LoLs.
Ok tht day(yesterday :15th) went to ITE follow my buddy chee hwee go buy his ITE clothes.Haiz...
Thn on the way bak in MRT we saw a very nice poster which goes nice with my head!!
dont gt wad i mean??

Let the Pict Do the talking Bahs :X

Aniways thn later at home i kiss my hair gdbye(haven't cut).
Coz go ITE make EZ-Link card cant have coloured or hair long lik hell...
So bo bian lez T.T

My Best Fren...Fringe...

Aniways,I'm writing This blog At 1.05am of 16th...
AND JANA IS HOSPITAL!!! WAD DE HELL!!!
Omg she gt high fever and at hospital sia T.T
Dun ask me whu is she =.= go find out urself.
Walao so worried about her!!

Aniways now my mood is on see-saw and i've kept everything short and sweet
for you guys to read . no mood to write le.
Keep u guys updated asap.
*see la...Cursed again...so dont ask me y i keep saying this word alright...*

Living Among Curse Day.3

2008-01-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

The time now is...12.23am ...

Still up trying to learn wadeva basics tht i should now regarding blogging ...
Aniways,went to Balestier "yesyerday"...Old skool i hav to say!!
Not so frenly ppl ,Lotz of Ah Bengs and Teachers aso Ah Lians...
Nothing much of things happen today except sme self reflection on why am i such a Coward!

Curse It Man!! *Pui* =.=
Other Guys can tok to gals as though breathing...
For me i feel lik slapping myself coz i find tht toking to LoanSharks are even better...
So this stupid question leads me to wondering is this y i cant get my darling princess??
Even though i put in lot of effort but Juz becoz i dont have a honeyed mouth and my shy attitude got me into such a mess?? anibody care to tell me smethin??

All i can do...is to hide myself in a corner and start my DEE(Daily Emo Exercise)

And hugging my Lovely present from "her":

Aniways now let's move on to my frens Bak in skool !!
How are you guys???!! still serving Lao kok kok ahs? O.o
All the best to yoiu guys in there man...Graduate in 1 piece alright!!
One last thin in WRSS ...memories i cnt let go...My Fellow Npcc Juniors and Squadmate.

Fellow squadmates and Juniors:
Those memories are not fake.
My Main concern are this yr's sec 2 and 3.
All i have to say is tht i'm sorry,during my days whn i was a NCO...
i never really give in all my best to let u guys enjoy the true fun in Npcc.
i never really cared alot about u guys compared to other NCO.
i never really taught u guys well ended up u guys getting scolded.
I hope u guys are doing CooL now and...yea Tkecares Lotz!! DRINK LOTZ OF H2O
IN TAINING!!
Lastly to the sec4's tis yr... I noe i've never really been a gd role model for you guys,
but u guys are better !!
Aniways i noe tht u've been put under alot of stress and wad so eva but my point is,
Make This Last Few Months Worth It... I regretted the whole of my NCO times...
How u guy are gonna do it it's up to u...after all u guys are NCO already XD
U hav the Snr's and CI's behind you...CHiong bahs ^^
Dont regret it...
Lastly ,All the best to my fellow Npcc mates regardless Old or Young ;)

i guess tht's about it...aniways i'm not gonna go slp coz i still doin my DEE.
tkecares ppl...

Lving Among Curse Day.2

2008-01-03T09:51:00.000+08:00

Today is day 2!! Morning 10am!! I GOT NOTHING BETTER DO!!
LoL~
Aniways Happy 2days old, Bloggy!!
Still doin some possible touch ups on this blog...
man...
All my Friends in school around this time studying and i slacking at home!!
How nice is tht !!
"not nice at all..."
aniways i'll be goin down to balestier ITE with a "brudder" to confirm his course
at that ITE ,i aso "Sun Bian" go down and chack if i'm in the list lorhs..
I appeal for change into that ITE mahs...thn go down there double check if thy've
received my mails or wadeva bullshit lorhs...

See lahs!! morning Tio so mani curse liaos... T.T
gotta Run!!

I'M LIVING IN A CURSED WORLD...

2008-01-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

This World Of Curse...
People Live in Curse Without knowing,Enjoying every sec of Toture...
Of coz ...In this world of curse there is Salvation!
Salvation Which is Love...

Now I'm Just a wanderer On this cursed place..
Looking for a Something Which would save me called Love...

Dream-Infinity

.....

Disappointed

Yet another day.

Again.

What the heck anyways...

My only last request.

That's it

You'll always be my baby..

Blogging through phone!

FREE MAN!!`

Feeling the rythm.

Long time no post!! Again...

My Sleeping Beauty...

Urgent News!!

Yet another day..

Training's tough..

is it time to wake up now??

i need to get A-Life!!

Lazy to Blog

Things are slowly going back to normal...*heng ah*

The little effort that saves Lives..

Back again with brand new Look!!

Breaking Through!!

I've thought about it too...

Midnight post

My Gawd! I'm BACK!

Happy & Sad

today is the 27th

Revived

i sleep too much till my sleeping beauty leaving me soon.

Facing Reality

Blog Alive...But i'm feeling so dead..

用我一身幸福，换取你的悲伤。我愿意...

Blocked+Banished+Betrayed = Bodoh???

Getting Ready For The Worst.

Things are just not getting better =)

Reality = Boundaries

Trying Hard To Bring You Smiles.

Words Kills.

i've returned to my blog ...

Kns..so long no update.

Kns..so long no update.

A little Something to say (:

This is SOOoo Chaotic..

Sometimes i Should have Shut up...

Things are hooking up.

Love lik Heaven,Hurts lik Hell

Shooting Star That You Can Safely Say Your's (:

Revival of Blog (: *with opening regarding blogskin*

Friday 9th May 08 East Coast.

Today's Mother's Day!!

Touched...Trapped...Tearing...

Twisted.

You Never Try , You'll Never Know...

Game-Less , Love-More

Shooting Star Has Landed.

I Need To Change, i have to...

I HATE BEING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tears Falls as the Shooting Stars Will...

A Night at East Coast & 1st half of 9th April.

Clara's House Visit

Class outing(2nd April) , TOday(3rd April)

Heh...i cant sleep!!!

The rest of the Day.

wad a morning..

1st Month Anniversery!!!

The Morning of My 1Month Anniversery!!

It's a really Beautiful day...

23th March 08 was totally Awesme!!

Brand New Look & Address!!!

..:: Long & Sweet ::..

Long Time No Post...

My "Sorries" Statement...

Not every Sunday is Sunny...

Friday.Really.Is.Day.All.Yawn.

21st of Feb....Hmmmmm....

2days happenings(compounded)

Another Day...another story...

Sorry For The Long Lost Update.

Things are slowly going back to normal...heng ah

Revival of Blog (: with opening regarding blogskin